My brain hurts?

[Happyness]

Don't know where to start.

Only just started therapy.

I'm scared of the way I look.

I'm a lot calmer than I look

I'm trying very hard to feel peacefull on the inside, regardless of how I'm treated

Peace?

[Happyness]

Hello

Happyness posting

How important now is my quiet time

Not learnt from books

but an important intervention strategy for me

The quiet time keeps me somewhat sane

Living in the moment

to keep disaster at bay

I have falls sometimes

and need time to digest it

over time

to not completely lose hope

I need the quiet time to hold on

and somewhat take each day as it comes

And keep safe relatively

Admist my widely faceted disabilities

Time to think

And stay somewhat hopefull

That the next day

Will be a better day

And to thank my God

For what I do have

And not what I don't have

Shouldn't we love our brother and sister

And love ourselves

I long for Peace

Happyness

🙂

[Happyness]

It's so hard to love myself

Sometimes I feel I love myself

Other times I don't

But

At least loving myself Sometimes

Is still loving myself

And I'm Still myself

Happyness

[Donae]

I admire anyone that loves themselves, I wouldn't know how to. I hate tolook at my self in the mirror, I am overweight because I suffer chronic headaches after a craniotomy had breast cancer and grew up in an abusive childhood. Maybe if I could love myself it would help.

Donna.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Happyness,

Thanks for posting on BB and reaching out.

I'm sorry that you are going through a tough time and I can see from your first post you just started therapy so that's a really good sign and I hope that they can help.  Feel free to let us know what's going on for you so we can help more.

If you are feeling comfortable posting, maybe you could let us know what's causing the blackouts so we can offer you some support?

Take care.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Donae,

I saw your comment here and wanted to reply to you.  Sorry that nobody has yet.

I think loving yourself is one of the hardest things that we can do because we have a thousand reasons not to, but I think it's also about accepting yourself first.  and we can't really do that until we accept what's happened with the craniotomy and abusive childhood and how that might have impacted you and your self-esteem and self-worth.  

Feel free to start a thread of your own or click on 'Get Support' to reach out to a psychologist or the BeyondBlue hotline.

I know it's not an easy path but you have our support.

🙂

[Happyness]

I'm not too bad

[Guest_5218]

Hi there Happyness,

I note that you started this thead way back in June 2014, and last updated us on July 2015.  

It is good news indeed that you have apparently made good progress, to the extent where you are now feeling "not too bad".  Sounds like the intervention therapy has had good results for you.  Are you still having regular therapy for shock and trauma symptoms?  And do you still have the blackouts and regular falls?

I hope you have learned to love yourself and be happy.  I wish you every happiness possible.

Thanks for the update on your progress.  Its good to hear.

Sherie

[Happyness]

Redemption

Sanctification

It's a simple understanding for me

[Happyness]

Hello

I'm trying to meditate on the concept

'Thoughts are only thoughts'

And

'We can make a conscious decision on how to react to thoughts'

Any thoughts?

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Happyness,

Thanks for reaching out to BeyondBlue.

I have heard of those two statements before; "Thoughts are only thoughts" and "We can make a conscious decision on how to react to thoughts."

A lot of this is based on CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy) which is a way of retraining your brain to recognise that we give our thoughts their power.  Even though all of us have thoughts, very few of us are able to recognise whether our thoughts are necessarily true/bias or flawed.

Hope this helps a little!

Take care,