Kind Regards

[Lee_dihm]

Hi all I've been diagnosed with PTSD after I was bullied in a workplace that was so traumatic that I've not been able to get off the couch since (work in that field since)that was 4 yrs ago, although I woke up one morning 10 yrs before to find one of my beautiful daughters had died in her sleep,she was 22 was that not enough for me to have developed PTSD yes of course it was but if I were to keep wondering WHY there could be another hundred reasons.Im now just after the answers I want to comeback from the hell that I thought was a life sentence.looking back it began as a very small child,I really like the buy one get 2 free mental health conditions It made me smile as thats me!! and when I think whats happened to me in my lifetime its a bit the same sometimes I say to my husband I felt like I had tattooed on my forehead 'abuse me I can take it!! Reality was that I couldn't take it and since having therapy over many years I understand that I was a normal child in a very abnormal environment where abuse was their ;NORM;!!So in saying that I'm a mumma of 5 and nanny of 11 somedays are diamonds and you know the rest if you suffer with this illness.I guess what im asking is how do I get off the couch how do you look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself your ok.Well I'll just share this little episode that( I put myself through in the last week).I've been studying over the last 2 yrs and have become qualified in my field which is Health by the way and I'm now adding to this so that I can actually work in a field that I want.I get a phone call from a company (that was a in my previous field that I never wanted to go back to and I say YES!! long story short one shift later and I was shattered for 3 days just because I forgot for a moment that it was so detrimental to my health.Today is a new day and this is the first time I have told this to anyone who isn't close to me so I'm putting it out there because I want to feel so much better than this and I believe that I can.I've been reading your stories and your amazing for being able to tell us your stories.Thanks from "Kind Regards"

[Lonelydan]

Hi Lee, welcome to beyond blue. What a strong lady you are, after all that you are still here. You are a survivor a warrior and fighter. Employment is terrible everywhere from my own personal experience to what i here from friends there seems to be a lot of bullying. I’ve always told people when I’ve started a new position that my father is a barrister who specialises in employment law not true but it has it power. Dan..

[demonblaster]

Lee hi 🙂 thankyou for sharing, very brave, very strong. You've definately come to a good supportive caring communiity

Really am so sorry to hear of your terribly sad loss. WOW, as lonelydan said, you're a very strong lady, you're still here, survival at it's best and gotta say loving that you believe you can get through and be happy, I do too. I think we're half way there if we believe.

The work situations sound horrific, I'll never understand why people feel it's their god given right to hassle others, it's actually a lot say their own insecurities they're letting out on others, still doesn't make it any chop to be on receiving end aye.

Btw congrats on achieving your health qualifications. I've worked many places over my working life and had my share of pffftttts, it's such a downer, but majority have been good with of course always the minority horrids around. Shame so I hold hope that its your time to have a good break and find happiness in future work.

Sorry to hear you had abuse in your childhood, what a terrible way to start life, glad you found out you're quite normal from counselling.

I see such strength in you & determination that is what will pull you through Lee. Don't ever let the beast take that from you.

Getting up from the couch, how? You deserve happiness, it's your right. You've had enough terrible grief in your life, it's your turn now. You've got the goods darl.

Here for ya

[Mathy]

Hi Lee, I wanted to add my congratulations on finishing your qualifications, well done 👍

In answer to your question as to why you chose to go back and work again in the area that you found damaging, I wonder whether it’s about what I call “poking the bear” - have we really recovered, “I’ll give it one more go, just to prove myself”. Guess it’s about learning when it’s time to call it quits and not feel like a failure 🙂

It’s detrimental to the health of the person you used to be. The new, beautiful you, no longer needs to work for/in that area again. A big well done to you, looking forward to reading about your new career,best M 🙂