Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[mocha delight]

Hi ecomama still not in the best of moods today and I seem to be slowly more down then up mood wise lately with the added racing thoughts making it difficult to sleep and barely sleeping at night again to.

[Guest_498]

Hey mocha,
Im feeling the same way. Hang in there, love.
Sleepy & Ems, Ive responded to your last responses but youll have to flick back a page.
I will also catch up on all recent threads and respond soon.
Blubes xx

[ecomama]

Bluberry said:Ems, I know sweetie. How could these so called health professionals be so sick as to do what they did to me?
I didnt deserve any of it.

ABSOLUTELY you didn't deserve any of it!

Re: MH professionals that could do this stuff?
They have no conscience.
None.

There's also the "power trip" thing going on when things like this happen.

Also the "never admitting they were wrong" thing. God forbid they EVER admit a mistake let alone a huge one like in monkey's and your cases.

I'm sure that's the "light" version of why.

So there we have groups of individuals conspiring or bad ppl just happening to connect to do this...

And on the other hand we have ppl like me who've wandered from one MH professional to the next for decades and NONE of them picked up PTSD, let alone C-PTSD.
Not even Anxiety!
Not even depression (a GP did, not psychs or Counsellors at the time).

None of them even picked up DV!
Even worse than that... a psych who was our MARRIAGE Counsellor..... grrrrrrrrrrr... such a BAD BAD story.... well it ended well when I had an EDUCATION about DV / minions / triangulation etc... I told her off. Very politely and VERY succinctly.
I wore her down till she as in tears apologising for being a minion and abusing me also.
Literally abusing me, POINTING her finger at me and everything!

I digress... sorry.

And I was JUST as open with them as I have been here, I didn't hold back!

We've no idea how many they "get right".

Now it's better with more MHCP visits and worse because I know for sure more of the extremes will happen.

I trust my Counsellor and she's freaking AWESOME but I doubt I will ever visit a psych again.
I hit the jackpot with my Counsellor, SO lucky.

EMxxxx

[ecomama]

mocha delight said:Hi ecomama still not in the best of moods today and I seem to be slowly more down then up mood wise lately with the added racing thoughts making it difficult to sleep and barely sleeping at night again to.

I'm sorry to hear how you're feeling mocha.

It's darned hard. Like REALLY hard.

Sounds like the down mood is depression and the racing thoughts / sleeplessness is anxiety.
BUT I'M NOT A MH Prof.

The "pot" of things you have to do for depression and the "pot" of things you have to do for anxiety are very very different....

BUT a few things cross over both.... (Chime in here with help anyone!)...
1 is self-care - like literally DOING it whether we like it or not...
2 is exercise
3 is things to look forward to.... no matter WHAT, no matter when (excluding substance abuse etc please omg, we're not doing that!)
4 finding what makes us "SPARKLE" and doing those too.

I saw what you wrote on the improvements to the forums thread mocha and I think that's a grand idea!

Anything else that cover both guys??

I'd say doing up your bedroom is part of self-care, like Sleepy's done.

What do you think mocha?

Love EM

[mocha delight]

Geez here I was thinking your prof ecomama for mental 😉😂 ok I’ll try to behave now but I can’t make any promises ehehehehehe. I’ll give all those except for number 3 unless drinking coffee counts 🤪. And exercise may be hard as if I do more then 10 minutes it does the complete opposite then what it should do and makes my mind go to not a good place.

[Guest_498]

Ems, you're very lucky to have one that you trust. So very lucky. You said "Re: MH professionals that could do this stuff? .. They have no conscience. None. There's also the "power trip" thing going on when things like this happen". I believe you. It's happened to me. I had nothing to do with psychiatrists or mh professionals until this incident. I believe you when you tell me - I've come to learn what they're like. If this is how they treat ppl with major mental health issues, I'm totally shocked. Really am. I was treated like human excrement and for no reason.

So glad your past is behind you babe. Im still living through mine. Can only hope to be where you are someday - in a happy, safe place. 🙂

Have I told you that I love you lately? I do. I care very much. Love always, kiddo xx

[Guest_498]

Mocha, Ems is is mental health professional as far as we're concerned. She's tops.

[Guest_498]

Thats a great suggestion for Mocha, Ems. Mocha do your bedroom!!! give it a make over - even a little one will make you feel awesome! If budget is tight, Kmart or Ikea offer great products, you don't need to go 'champagne' on bed linen.

[Guest_498]

Hey Sleepy,

"Ithink my bedroom has improved with these sheets -they are good quality and that has been nice - the white might make it more crisp. The bedside is dark brown and the timber floors are brown too so it's all quite dark.
I forget sometimes I need those girly touches... but they make a big difference". I love, love, love the look of this!!! I have dark (black french) bedside tables too. Sitting top are my chrome, crystal and beige shade Laura Ashley lamps either side (Had these imported from the U.K many years ago), my chrome George Jensen digital clock on one table, and on another is a small mirrored jewelry box to complete the look. My bed is a french antique inspired upholstred bed with brown timber. The upholstered bedhead and end are white and beige stripes. I got this bed online and had it delivered upon moving home. Its beautiful, I love it. My carpet is damaged atm from toxic psychopaths, but will have that replaced with dark grey carpet to match my roller blinds. Yes, colour is very modern but mixed in with the old. My bedroom looks really good. Its coming along ... It's been a year now since Ive been here and still a lot of styling to be had to the whole house. I'm not 100% happy with my room yet but It costs money and I'm leaving it as it is for now. Carpet laying is the next big expense. Ive already chosen a carpet and the company to do this with - its a matter of getting the funds together now. So, part of downstairs - living room and upstairs will require new carpet. I can't sell my home with the carpet the way it is now. Ugh.

Blubes. x

[mocha delight]

Blueberry I think when I called the rooms of the psychologist that my gp recommended to me and couldn’t get in to see as she was not taking on new clients I now realise that it was meant to happen for a reason as I think fate stepped in & was like nope she’s not the one you are meant to see. I also think my current psychologist I was guided to by faith as I didn’t get that feeling that I thought I clicked with her even after one session for no reason so it was all meant to be if that makes sense? My dear blueberry I truly want that for you when you find the right mh professional/s and that it pushes out & makes you forget about all your bad experiences 🤗.