Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[ecomama]

Hi Sleepy21!

Sleepy21 said:

hey blubs!

Hope all's well...halloween here has been interesting - just saw a man shopping in a store in full head to toe body-paint and spikes in his hair. Then I remembered it was halloween.

I think my bedroom has improved with these sheets -they are good quality and that has been nice - the white might make it more crisp. The bedside is dark brown and the timber floors are brown too so it's all quite dark.
I forget sometimes I need those girly touches... but they make a big difference.
we are a great family here - so much self-care and goodness happening.

Loving the look of your bedroom, sounds really swish!

I need girly touches too lol... it might sound a little odd but I only just realised that I love the female form in art.
Alexa made a sculpture for me of a female torso... then she painted a copy of a famous painting of nude underwater ladies with FISH lol... that will be hanging above my bed in my new bedroom... then a Wedding present years ago is in my hallway, it's a "Virgo" like lady, nude but crouching modestly.

Those and large white Grecian style pots are my faves.
Plus Industrial style and Country and Hampstead AND French Provincial lol!

I like the relaxing, comfy and sweet feeling.

I guess we can safely say, it's "eclectic" lol OR confused!

Love EM

[mocha delight]

Lol don’t worry about it and it’s hard to love yourself when you don’t and I’ve never like myself let alone loved myself

[ecomama]

mocha delight said:Lol don’t worry about it and it’s hard to love yourself when you don’t and I’ve never like myself let alone loved myself

Sure we all GET that... but don't think you're getting away with that with us all who care and support you.

NO WAY.

It's a JOURNEY.

You've hopped on this boat and we're all doing this thang TOGETHER now.

It's your ecomama talking lol.

HUGE hugs mocha. We've got this!

xxxxxxxEM

[Guest_1643]

hi Mocha - i totally understand wht you mean - it's hard to love yourself when you don't

it's hard to have hope when you don't

it's hard. Little changes are all we cna notice but definitely not my experience that one day you wake up and you love yourself or have hope. I hope you are okay

[ecomama]

Hi girls

How are you all doing today?

Love EM

[Guest_498]

Hey sweetie,
Im feeling flat today. Not such a good day. Been thinking about my ex-ex, the one involved in the scam. I wonder why he did it? Like, as if hurting me prior wasnt enough?? I don't know what his motivations were. He denies it, but I know. He knows a lot about it all and I never told him anything. He acted suss every time I saw him. My heads completely done in. Noone told me anything. Absolutely nothing. I found out a lot via my med records, damages to my home when i moved back in & tampering of my pharmaceutical data - 2 months antidepressants scripts were missing from my database. I believe this was to create a psych history. They prescribed me antipsychotic without telling me what it was for, then tried to force me to fill it. I never filled the script. Had I did, a psych history wouldve been created. Why would I fill something when I was never told what it was for and when a diagnosis wasnt told to me. Because I don't have the disorder. Like I said I was set up.
I have no idea why either.

[Guest_1643]

i can understand wandering why---- it seems so cruel and unkind -

terrible how they set you up and tried to disempower you. What was his role - did he help them?i'm so glad you are away from them and can see what they did and not be a part of that anymore

[ecomama]

It's really bad Blubes, if these were normal ppl then none of this would've happened.

You know that right?

They're all controlling abusers, that's why.

Once you study the psychopathy of these ppl .... enough, you stop asking these questions.

This gives you the closure you'll never get, because they're never honest, because they're not normal.

They're very sick end of.

EMxxxx

[Guest_498]

Yeh, he was helping them alright. When they came to me, I drove to his home twice looking for answers. He didn't help me, acted suss. I knew he was involved when a statement was made to me "did something happened to you when you were a child .. Is that why youre into s&m? I don't find pleasure in receiving nor inflicting pain. What sort of question was that? I so humiliated I cried. I knew it was a set up by my sister, mum & ex ex. How do I know? Well, firstly my ex ex after I split up with him told me everything about my sisters evil intent for me which included making up stories about me, that Im crazy and get my mum to call the CAT Team. 2.5 years later, they did after I started to fight back against my mums abuse. Here I was called all sorts .. Crazy, violent, into s&m, tried to commit suicide, assaulted someone, damaged someones property. Turns out the property that was damaged was mine. My garage was staged to look like suicide attempt & destruction to my wall, carpet etc staged to look like a psychotic episode. The real estate agent stopped communication with me after they falsified the tenants ingoing report (damages were already there). Ive been real estate agent for 14 years and never would a bond be released without first fixing the damages. Thats the law.

[Guest_498]

Ems, I know sweetie. How could these so called health professionals be so sick as to do what they did to me?
I didnt deserve any of it.