Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[Guest_498]

Ems, Suburra isnt subtitled - only the start, it is. Its in english. Yeh, up my alley too. Its great.

[mocha delight]

Hey all well the weather seems to be matching my mood we’re I live today which is dark, gloomy and stormy plus it’s bringing out my emotional binge eating side of me.

[ecomama]

Looks like son GOT THE JOB!

So awesome for him.
OMG "funding the family"... cheeses... at this stage NOTHING would surprise me tbh.

IDK why my Suburra is all in Italian??? With English subtitles...
I'm watching it through Netflix, is yours?

OH WE ARE SO BACKWARDS HERE.... an "Indian Grocer"???
AND an "Indian HAIRDRESSER"???????
OMG HOW LUCKY ARE YOU GUYS!

We have nothing like that. SO pithed off now lol.
ok so I googled it and a neutral one is available from Chemist Warehouse, so I'm good now lol!

Still pithed about no Indian shops, why don't Indian ppl love us too??
that's discrimination lol.
I bet if I asked in the Indian RESTAURANT then I might get some directions to the nearest Indian Grocer, probably in our Capital city so that's a long way. I'll ask them the Restaurant peeps.

Blubes once you establish your friendships you will never take them for granted again.
I had zero... the nutter made sure of that.
I had no idea what happened or what he was doing. He was lying to them all.

But even now you're making connections and you will continue to do this.

I have FULL faith in people wanting to be friends with you because you're AWESOME!
And you've made awesome friends here.. so there's the proof lol.

mocha why the sad feelings??? I thought you were feeling good with progress in your world... please reach out. We love you.

Love EM

[Guest_498]

Im watching mine on netflix, yes. There are two versions I discovered. One in english, and another in Italian. Umm I just typed in Suburra. Then played it. Mine came up as english version. Try searching and playing it. Let me know how you go.

[Guest_498]

So if you go to the audio section (nextto subtitles) click on english

[Guest_1643]

hey blubs!

Hope all's well...halloween here has been interesting - just saw a man shopping in a store in full head to toe body-paint and spikes in his hair. Then I remembered it was halloween.

I think my bedroom has improved with these sheets -they are good quality and that has been nice - the white might make it more crisp. The bedside is dark brown and the timber floors are brown too so it's all quite dark.
I forget sometimes I need those girly touches... but they make a big difference.
we are a great family here - so much self-care and goodness happening.

[mocha delight]

Hi ecomama I don’t know why these feelings as I was just basically starting to be doing really good in my world but I think I’ve just realised that my feelings were slowly at first started seesawing but gradually & picking up speed is the only way I can describe it or how it feels like.

[ecomama]

Hey mocha

Thankyou for sharing what's going on... it's really hard to explain in words..

I've experienced depression and anxiety at the same time and it's a totally weird thing. (Like REALLY strange feelings!).

The "seesaw" is a perfect way of describing it, clever girl coming up with that!

I've called it 2 steps forward, 3 back then 4 steps forward then down a slippery slide...

sweetheart, it's a CHALLENGE and a half! But you are AWESOME and so very young, you WILL learn how to manage these and you CAN recover.

I decided to tackle the depression first lol... THAT was the one that was hurting me the most (in my books)...

I've got to go now and pick up Y but keep talking to us all about your feelings and experiences... you're in company of ppl who KNOW what it feels like.

Love you lots
EM

[ecomama]

Oh gosh mocha on my way to pick up Y I worried that I may have given you a path to follow that WON'T suit you...

I'm SO glad you have a psych to talk to about this also! lol..

The thing is, IDK HOW ppl would tackle both depression AND anxiety at the same time.
Depression was heavier and harder and as I said, causing more harm to ME... but for you it could b the opposite, IDK...

Separating each of them even with a checklist of symptoms was the 1st long step for me.

Then "treating" depression...

The thing is my sweet friend... the ONE thing that I know for sure (even by research too! lol) is that self-care helps BOTH!

How awesome is that!

Sleepy and I are rockin' this self-care thread lol.. so we'd LOVE to see you on that thread too!

Look, honestly? I thought the whole self-care thing was a lot of hoohah... but I have been known to be wrong just a few times in my life lol!!! I was darned wrong.

But it's a bit like visiting the gym but for your mind. You know it's good for you, but you still don't want to do it... so be kind to yourself. LOVE yourself like we'd love you IRL if we could all hang out IRL.

The nice thing is that we CAN hang out here.

So.... ONWARDS and upwards mocha, you've got a cheer squad here cheering you on.

Love EM

[ecomama]

Hi Blubes, I LOVE how we can get technical support for watching Netflix on BB too!

LOLOLOL

Bluberry said:So if you go to the audio section (nextto subtitles) click on english

I must have "invoked the Blubes" because I worked it out and had a nap then saw your message! Lol.... it sounds alot better in Italian lol!

I fell asleep when Monsignor fell... so as not to be a total spoiler... hahaha

Love EM
PS: I picked up Y from the party and she was OKAY! omg that's progress... SO MUCH progress.
so maybe BOTH our anxiety around her interacting socially is getting broken down somewhat.

Before what used to happen is that she phoned me or texted me in a TOTAL panic attack.

I think having her PT job has been really rewarding. She's had to deal with VERY difficult customers and that's far easier for her than dealing with nutty work colleagues.
Either way she's dealing AND talking about it.

She was so extremely shut down for years... and volatile and explosive. We know why now...
since the perp is out of her life, it's better.

I had a dream that I went to America to see BF by myself.
Alexa was staying here with all the kids.
The minute I was gone, perp began stalking and harassing Y... so she called the Police and went to Court for an AVO against him...
They didn't tell me it was all happening UNTIL the morning of Court.
IDK the outcome.

Weird dream. Hope it wasn't prophetic but she DOES need protection from perp.

Love EM