I think I'm going crazy

Brokenpeices · ‎09-11-2016

For the last week I have been feeling spaced out, constantly tired, dizzy, I'm also having blackouts where I lose time and memories, I'm seeing images that feel real and losing my cool over the smallest things, it's almost like my mind and my body are seperate entities ATM and I feel like I don't have control over either of them, my body is jolting me back into reality but then I space out again, I feel like I'm going crazy and I can't do anything to stop it, I can't make it stop and I just want it to go away, I'm starting to fall deeper into my hole and I'm afraid I will hit the point of no return, I'm scared and I want to cry, I'm worried my girlfriend will leave me if I reach out for help, I'm afraid everyone will be angry if I admit myself because they will have to watch my children, but it's not going away

Zeal · ‎10-11-2016

Hi, and welcome to the forum!

These physical and psychological symptoms sound really debilitating, so getting help is the best way forward, both for you and your loved ones. Seeking help is usually encouraging for others, as it shows that you want to get better and are working on improving your situation. If anyone gets angry at you for getting professional help (which is probably unlikely), then that is their problem. You can't control the emotional reactions of others. Worry and relief are more probable reactions to you seeking help. I have heard of loved ones getting angry when someone refuses to seek help, or denies they have a problem. Seeking help usually doesn't elicit a negative response.

Going to your doctor (GP) as soon as possible is crucial. It would be good if your girlfriend or a family member can drive you there. Your doctor can refer you to someone for more personalised support/treatment.

Please don't feel that you are alone. There are always people who care. You have your girlfriend, children and your family. You probably also have friends who care about you too, even if you haven't been able to see them lately.

I hope you can seek help ASAP.

Best wishes,

Zeal

V17 · ‎10-11-2016

Hi brokenpieces,

You are not going crazy. I had felt the very same feelings you have described after I experienced trauma. The only way I got through it was by reaching out and seeking help - like Zeal has suggested. Your GP and/or a psych can help you make sense of what has happened and also provide the support you need on overcoming the fears you have at the moment. I understand how 'alone' you must be feeling. Reaching out in the BB Forum is a HUGE first step and I applaud you for that.
You are not alone and more importantly there is help out there. The BB Support Service 1300 22 4636 has been a huge help for me. Perhaps give them a call?

V.

Starwolf · ‎12-11-2016

Hello Brokenpeices,

A warm welcome to you and well done for finding the courage to share your concerns. You are finding yourself in a disjointed and confused head space at the moment so your concern is totally justified.

YOU are the priority at the moment. There is a lot you can do for yourself before the situation spirals further out of control. Getting help and support to manage it will in the long-term also benefit those around you. Mental/physical dissociation is a medical condition (just like diabetes or hypertension for example). It should be regarded and treated as such. It is something happening to you but is in no way caused by some flaw of personality. So please take good care of yourself and get a diagnosis ASAP. It takes courage but it is the first wise step towards learning to manage what you are up against. No need to struggle alone and in the dark.

Mental illness is difficult to understand and come to terms with for those affected. You can well imagine how much more difficult it is for their loved ones. But there are resources available to promote better understanding.

If you scroll down to the bottom of this page you will find a lot of helpful info. If necessary, printed copies can be ordered free of charge (see The Facts). There is a whole section concerning "Supporting someone".

I would be very surprised if your family didn't rally around you to offer the caring support you so much deserve. It is usually what families do when one of them is in distress. After all, they would be relieved if you sought medical help for any physical condition, even if you needed to check yourself in for surgery. The fact that some complaints affect the mind instead doesn't make them any different. Whatever the cause and the affected area, illness requires attention and treatment.

Here for you.