I can't remember what it's like to be happy

[Gify]

Everytime I think it's going ok something happens to cause stress.

I cry a lot I get the courage and strength to move on then it gets ripped right out from under me.

[Emmen]

Hello Gify,

Huge hug for what you're going through. What you describe was how last year was for me. It can feel like the world is conspiring against you and making sure things will never work out for you.

Please remember that you are much stronger than this period of turmoil. All things things that happen can weaken you, but this is where you need to stay strong. I'm sure you've heard of that old saying, "This too shall pass." It sounds cliche, but it's true. Troubled times will pass and happier times will come.

It's okay to cry when things are bad. It's better than suppressing how you feel. But the most important thing is that you don't lose hope for the future.

Wishing you all the best,
Emmen

[Gify]

Thanks Emmen, I've been waiting for the happier times for a while.

They never seem to come.

I'll just keep on keeping on.

[Deckt]

Hey Gify,

I remember that feeling, but only abstractly. That's because we literally can't remember emotions emotively. The opposite is true too.... when you are feeling happy, after a period of depression, you can remember feeling depressed, but you can't remember just how low it felt at the time. This is good.

What really sucks is when you're down. Because you can't remember what feeling happy truly felt like. But it is there. It's like... trying to feel warm when you're freezing by remembering a sunny day. It gives you something to remember, but it doesn't warm you up.

The advice I can give you is pretty simple, but it does help. PLEASE take it easy on yourself. It is 100% ok to focus on only immediate needs right now. That means eating, drinking and sleeping. Anything else can wait. Certain other things (such as cleaning your environment) can help you feel better, but if you're lacking in energy, it's ok for now. It will wait until tomorrow. Keep yourself fueled and rested, and leave everything else until tomorrow.

Do you have any support close to home?