Hi Sisko H,
Welcome to the forums. This sounds really difficult, we’re sorry to hear that you’re having these impulses, and feeling so disconnected from your home and your therapy. We are reaching out to you privately as we're concerned about you. You can also reach out to the lovely Beyond Blue counsellors directly, on 1300 22 4636 or online here.
We can imagine how hard it is to be away from your home, so we're glad you could share this here. It’s wonderful that you could share this here, we’re sure our welcoming community will have some kind words, understanding and advice for you. In the meantime, we’d recommend checking out some of these other threads where community members have shared their self-help tips and coping strategies for really difficult moments.
You might also want to have a look at the Blue Knot Foundation's site, or give them a call on 1300 657 380, every day between 9-5 (AEDT). Their counsellors are experienced in working with people who have experienced complex trauma. They also have some resources on their website which could be useful to visit, particularly the pages on Survivors Self Care.
Thanks again, and well done for sharing here. This is a judgment-free space, so please feel free to share, knowing that you'll be met with understanding. If you wanted to share anything that's helped you in the past, we're here to listen.
Kind regards,
Sophie M
