Cannot catch a break which ever way I turn

[Rosi_Z_]

I woke this morning and opened an onlinenews paper only to find an image that more than closely resembled a piece of artwork I have been developing for many years. Hardly like to be a coincidence. I was about to start a painting of that image and had prepared a canvas to start today. The last year has been obstacle after obstacle. I have been threatened with death for reporting a violent incident - I live in Dept. Housing, I have been abused verbally and my dog has been kicked by the same person. I saw him punch a woman in the head and throw her to the ground so I know what he is capable of. I have reported everything to the police/RSPCA/Housing but nothing seems to change. I am becoming reclusive and live like a hermit except for my dog and I am thinking about giving her up because I don't want her to be harmed. I feel like I'm living in some sort of prison, where everything I do or make is stolen or damaged in some way. It's like I am slowly disintegrating or freezing over ... becoming immobile and just staring out of an empty shell.

[white knight]

Hi Rozi, welcome

There are things we can change in life and things we cant. Our immediate environment is something we can work towards to alter fir a better quality of life. Sometimes you have to be radical.

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Topic: be radical- beyondblue

Be bold and measured

Tony WK

[Dr_Kim]

Hi Rosi Z

What a difficult situation for you. No one should have to feel under threat anywhere, but especially in their own home! Its great that you are proactive enough to report these things to the appropriate authorities. You have done your bit. I really hope that you are able to keep your beloved dog with you as I really think that pets are so good for us and provide us with much company , fun and joy. 

 I won’t argue that the world can be a bad and mean place for many in it. So how to deal with this? Man’s search for meaning in an often unjust world has become one of the most debated topics among philosophers of our time.
 
In my (limited) understanding of this complex topic I summarise by thinking that 

1. we can’t control the way others are but we can control the way we are in this world 
2. we have the choice/ freedom to behave in a way the WE are proud of, that we think is kind and compassionate every day. 
 
So..putting that together, maybe we cope with injustice by not trying to change others as much as doing OUR best on a daily basis. It can be as little as smiling at the shopkeeper and saying “have a nice day” .. or having a cup of tea with someone who is lonely , or volunteering your time at a place that needs it. It doesn’t matter what it is, but we are given opportunities regularly to be OUR best selves without seeking change and that is what gives us meaning, the freedom to act on that opportunity. The choice that others make with this opportunity is often out of our control. 
 
So Rosi Z , my suggestion to you is to take that big heart of yours and find places to express it. Find somewhere that you can let it shine. Walk down the street and smile it out , go down to a local op shop and see if you can volunteer, or offer to walk a dog with someone who is lonely and wants company or make contact with someone you have lost contact with and just smile and be kind. Don’t shut down your love, open it up! That may be a way to stop feeling of disintegration , the “freeze” .
 
Try it as an experiment for say one month and see how it feels!