C-PTSD and psychological

[Jm05]

• I have a psychologist I’ve seen for a number of years.
• recently the psychologist has started doing/raising things I’ve mentioned upset me. Attempting to challenge me in areas I haven’t addressed I want help in. 
• it seems they don’t want to work with me anymore and this is their approach. They say things like, ‘if you don’t trust me find a new therapist’. Then they do things that they know breaches my trust. 
• They know that my workplace injury means I find it stressful responding to Emails but they write me very long emails. I ask them to slow down and take it step at a time and they send another long email.
• they keep pushing anti-psychotics even though my physiatrist has  not suggested this as yet. When I point this out to them they say they are not pushing anything but they don’t see how I can do the work without these drugs and doesn’t know if they can work with me if I don’t take them.
• I tried to take them and had a suicide attempt and they do not seem to consider that. 
• they say contradictory things. When I ask them about this they accuse me of trying to trip them up and do reverse psychological games. I need to find someone else but this has been very upsetting.

Anyone else had similar experiences?

[Sophie_M]

Hi Jm05, 
 
Thank you for your bravery and openness in sharing here. We can hear how difficult things have been recently, but we think sharing this here is an amazing action to have taken.  
 
We’ve reached out to you privately to check in and thank you for sharing with the community here. We can hear you have a team around who you've been able to talk to, but just so that you're aware we're here if you ever need someone to talk to. Our lovely counsellors are available 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 and online, and if you ever feel unsafe or unable to avoid acting on thoughts of suicide or self-harm, the number to call is 000. 
 
We’re sure we’ll hear from some of our lovely community members here on your thread soon. They’re a really amazing community. Thanks again for sharing. It’s a powerful and brave step, and you never know who might be reading this and feeling less alone because of it.  
 
Kind regards, 
 
Sophie M 

[Learn to Fly]

Hi Jm05,

I haven't had a similar experience. However, after reading your post I can't help but feel like the relationship with your psychologist is weighing you down. I understand you have been seeing them for a number of years. This might feel safe and secure, however, considering their behaviour and approach towards yourself, it sounds like this is everything but safe and secure. It might be stressful for you to try to find a new psychologist so how would you feel about seeing your usual GP first? Someone you know and you feel you can trust? Taking things slowly so things don't overwhelm you. Let me know your thoughts on this. 

[Jm05]

Hi thanks for your reply, learn to fly.

part of the problem was that I didn’t like my doctor. I kept telling psychologist this and they ignored that I was looking for help yo change my ability to manage this. Later when I brought it up with psychologist they said it was not there job to change my doctor.  The psychologist did not seem to understand I was asking for assistance to be able to do these things. It’s very daunting. I seen someone knew today and they went through a frame work for changing my thoughts. 

still I just can’t believe how treating practitioners get away with these things. 

seems like they take what they want when they want yo and treat you as a number not an individual. Thanks for your reply 

[HisOwn]

I have along the way had some negative experiences with health professionals too so just had to try a few before I felt comfortable with someone. However in saying that I also have discovered along the way that, because of PTSD, I on occasions were totally reading some health professionals the wrong way..because I had zero trust in anyone (because of past trauma with both health professionals and people I was in close relationship with) so I was always  in flight or fight mode the whole time. So I kind of had to just try really hard to look at the health professionals from an unemotional aspect and put some basic trust into their experience and knowledge, even if I didn't agree with it. 

I was VERY anti meds too for a long time and this caused a lot of frustration for any GPs or psychiatrists I deal with..the thing I had to understand was that doctors and psychiatrists TREAT our illnesses with meds..so Ive just recently made a decision to at least try meds for my issues but I also do cognitive work too..and since only being on meds for about a week I can now start to see my situation in a different light so the cognitive treatments are more effective.

Hope that helps a little bit. 🤗