Hi Ney1309
the first step is talking to a doctor and/or psychologist, so very well done for that. It can be very hard to do, but you've taken that step. but you need to be positive about things, have faith that its going to work and hVe the strength to push forward.
im not one to tell anyone how to live their life, so dont take this the wrong way. Drug use plays around with our chemical makeup, and while you do things to get the ‘high’ a part of your body is moving in the opposite direction, taking you low. You may not feel it, but its likely working in the background.
it Would be a very good move to discuss your vices with your doctor and psychologist, as there is a real possibility that this is causing more harm than good.
If you are going to be on any anxiety medications, it would be a very good idea to abstain from getting high, otherwise you risk losing the functionality of the medication.
with the job, im not sure you should be embarrassed at all about wanting to change careers. I have had that thought too (i went from loving my job to hating it so much to back to liking it in the space of 2 years)
There are options available, such as looking at what makes you happy and unhappy about your job. Do you have the power to change those things?
what career attracts you.
It is very common for a partner to not understand what you are going through, but my advise is to be very open about it all. Talk to each other, share how youre feeling, how you are tracking...its not something to do alone.
dont be hard on yourself, because that can make the cycle continue.
i hope that the BB community can give you the advice to help you on your journey.
Not_Batman
