UPDATED: I just feel alone and lost in a new world I don't like

[Zetta]

Hi everyone, I just want to introduce myself. I went to the Dr today and he prescribed me my medication. I'll be starting the journey to a more positive outlook soon. I just feel soo lost and confused. My husband and I have had a pretty hard week this week as I told him something that changed everything for us. A secret I held for a long time. And he's not talking to me much. I just feel alone and lost in a new world I don't like. It's just all soo confusing. 

[Zetta]

Thanks Grace,

Thanks for your reply and Kind words of encouragement. I guess I'm just soo frustrated that he doesn't understand that I have been struggling all these years in silence and trying to be strong. A person can only be strong for so long. 

Thanks again for your reply.

Zetta

[Graceeeeee]

Hey dear Zetta!

I'm sorry to hear that you suffered many years in silence, that is not the right way to recovery 🙂 And I think it's a good idea to take your husband with you to the GP and the psychologist. You don't have to be alone, we are all here for you, and your parents are there for you, and I'm sure your husband will be there for you soon 🙂 I'm so glad to hear that you are taking action and changing, good job you! 

You are a very strong woman Zetta, thanks for the contribution you have made here! And happy International Women's Day haha, have a good day Zetta!

With Love,

Grace xx

[blondguy]

Hey Zetta

Graceee is spot on here..."You don't have to be alone"...

You are one 'Pro-Active' girl Zetta....Kudos to you and your strength..:-)

Paul

[Zetta]

Thanks Grace!! 

Happy International Womens day to you too! Thank you for your kind encouraging words! I just organised that mum will be coming up for my surgery and is very happy today!! Things is starting to feel more normal and i'm not as down as what I was two weeks ago! 

Thanks for being here!!

Zetta

[Zetta]

Hey Paul!

Thanks for that!! I'm feeling lots better today!! It's great how you guys help me see things in a different way!! Thank you!!

Cheers

Zetta

[Guest_1055]

Hey Zetta

I am glad you are feeling lots better. Yeah...

Take care now, and sleep well.

Hugs

Shell xx

[Starwolf]

Hi Zetta,

Good to know things are looking up for you.

Having to wait until May for a laparoscopy is a bit tough while you're in pain. I guess you will not have a definite surgery date until then. However, having your mother with you will help you focus on recovery instead of trying to juggle everything else. She will make sure you get some much needed rest. Sometimes, we all need someone to act as a buffer zone between ourselves and a demanding world. Having such person in our life is a privilege.

Why let guilt drag you down ? You did the right thing and should be proud of showing this courage. We all make mistakes but only a strong, special person can take responsibility for coming clean. None of us can assume responsibility for someone else's actions and reactions.

Trying to tackle the communication issue within your marriage is another positive decision. Hopefully, your husband will also rise to the challenge and handle his side of the relationship with new compassion and understanding.

I wish you a peaceful, pain-free day.

[Zetta]

Thanks Shell!! 

I had a great nights sleep and a very busy day with a homeschool workshop and a dr's appointment and a few errands to run. But otherwise i'm doing great!! I'm seeing my GP tomorrow and hopefully I can get my referral to a psychologist and my mental health plan sorted tomorrow. 

I think once I start to talk to a therapist I'll be better able to cope and start healing. 

 cheers,

Zetta

[Zetta]

Hey Paul, 

I just got my surgery date today and it's the 13th of May. So i'm hoping I can handle the pain until then. I just can't wait to have mum here and helping me!! I miss her soo much!! 

Thanks Paul, my best friend said exactly the same thing to me today!! She knows the secret and doesn't judge me for it either which makes it soo much easier to deal with it. It is a big mistake I made and I should let the guilt go. It just feels like everything is happening soo fast and I'm left behind. I pray about it daily Paul and ask God for forgiveness everyday. 

I'm my husband does the same. He doesn't like going to a counsellor but I know this is the only way we will be able to work through this. We can't just leave it to fester and blow up in the future. 

I had a pretty busy day today with the kids and the homeschool workshop so I'm pretty tired and sore.

I'm off to bed for a well deserved nights sleep.

Good night,

Zetta

[blondguy]

Hi Zetta

13th May...Its a wait but on the good side its still a date you can look forward to! I have known people with chronic pain like yours and I am still feel for them because in 2016 I thought we may have progressed further where the waiting times are concerned.

The list of people that have made a big mistake in their lives would be never ending, as Human Beings by nature are imperfect themselves.

I just want to quote 'Starwolf' here if I may;

"Hopefully, your husband will also rise to the challenge and handle his
side of the relationship with new compassion and understanding."

Very well said. I cant articulate her thoughts any better

Love your attitude Zetta

Paul