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This bipolar life

Kazzl
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Are your moods are like an elevator with no control buttons? Mine are.

Ground floor ... I feel normal, content, just quietly getting on with ordinary, everyday life, loving my family and friends. This is as it should be. And maybe there's nothing wrong with me after all. Live.

Going up, top floor. Oh look! There's a shiny thing! I want to sing! Let's go buy stuff! Let's have a big party and invite the world! What could possibly go wrong! Woooooo hoooooooo! Play.

Going up (a different day) top floor. What do you mean you don't agree with me! I'm right! Why don't you think like me? Keep up! How can you be so illogical? I'll f-ing shred you if you don't do what I want! Rage.

Going down, lower ground floor. Flat, listless, can't be bothered. Can still function but it's a drag. Cope

Going down, basement. I'm never getting out of bed again. I'm useless, worthless. Total idiot, how could I ever imagine I could do anything, nothing ever goes right because I'm wrong. I'm a burden to everyone. Hide.

Welcome to my bipolar world. It's always been my world, but it's only recently I've seen it for what it is. About 15 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression during one of my 'basement' times. I had a lot of lower ground floor times too, on and off, and I kept out of the basement (so I thought) with alcohol. Until that took me into the blackest ever basement with only one obvious way out. Having survived doing something very dangerous I realised I had to stop drinking or I really would die.

I never took much notice of the playful times or the anger, that was just me, I was fun sometimes, and sometimes I was a devastating bitch. Ha! Deal with it people!

Well, yes, but in time the elevator started going up and down too quickly and, as I became more aware and more knowledgeable about mental health I realised this wasn't good. Doctor. Diagnosis. Bipolar 2. Lithium.

So, I've started this thread in the hope that other bipolar folks will join me, to share experiences and strategies. In my 'beginners' understanding, we are different from other fellow travellers of the back dog. While we experience depression as many others on this site do, the hypomanic or manic ups and, for some the rapid cycling that can happen, are experiences unto themselves.

I want to learn more, and I want to share with others. I hope my fellow elevators will join me here.
BTW, it's a ground floor day in my head today! Yay!

Love

Kaz

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Quirky I can tell how I am feeling, why I am feeling that way. I can’t do much about that feeling. Usually it’s anger that I am feeling. My husband thinks I can control my anger, I cannot. I am starting to learn to remove myself from situations before it becomes the explosive anger. 

quirkywords
Community Champion
Community Champion

Asdff

i used to say what I was thinking and it came out as mean and sarcastic. I find it hard to stand up for myself incase sarcastic me comes out instead of understanding patient  me

For me Quirky it depends on how far up the anger chart I am. Or how far down the sadness chart. Today we have sunshine, lots of it. I watched a documentary. I thought would cheer me up. Nope I ended up crying. I think the change in weather affects my moods. Does this happen with others? We’ve had terrible weather and then Suddenly it changes. 

V, yay for cute chiro with an awesome sense of humour. 

Weather does not affect my moods but people and their comments and moods affect me. 

Lack of sunlight affects moods. We need a certain amount of UVB at a certain wavelength to have vitamin D synthesised in the skin. Low vitamin D affects many things, one being mood. 

I am absolutely speaking from experience. 

On that note, I'm going into the vitamin D shower outside !! Hahaha!

 

My doctor said I would have to take my top off if I wanted to absorb enough vitamin D so she said to take liquid vitamin d.

Hahahhahha!! That's hilarious. 

I guess geography affects sunlight exposure as well. 

We have a lot now in WA. Glorious!!!

 

Just saying hi to Velvet, Asdff, Aries ,Lisa and all those reading .

How was your week. 
do there feel so tired sometimes it is hard to get going and everything takes an effort. Not depressed just tired. A friend is very ill just found today and now I feel I am arraying the weight of their illness yet they are trying to remain hopeful. I am an empathetic and find it hard not too feel.

Howdy. I've had a busy time. Nothing bad. Just busy, I had a virus for about 10 days as well. I'm still tired from it. 

Busy doing the exercise the chiro told me to do. I see him tomorrow. I should be all fixed now.

I'm now lifting weights I was able to lift before my surgery in May..YAY!! 

(No regrets there. The pain I used to have is completely GONE!!!).

I hope your friends illness is transient and not nasty quirky. 

I hope asdff is surviving school holidays. Eek!!!!! 

Airies = how did the hospital go?

Fun fact = I've been learning all kinds of random and unrelated stuff. One is astrology. I have 3 planets in Aries!!!

🐑 🐏 🐑 

 

Velvet is 3 planets in Aries a good thing?