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I'm really trying to feel better about myself

Music_Freak
Community Member

I don't know where to start with this, there's so much in my head right now...

I've got nothing, but my cat...no job, no friends, far from a family priority etc. etc.

My mum died 10 years ago on 26.2 and I still miss her so badly, she was the only person I had who was in my corner. Everyone else (family, friends that currently aren't talking to me) say I play the victim and am all "woe is me"

My sister's said I look like a silverback gorilla and other such things. She's a bully who gets away with it all, because she's the favourite and "normal" (kids, married, no mental illness - although I have doubts about that last one). My dad's called me fat and said that "You're bent like your mother" (she was bipolar). He lives with me and getting him to do anything is such a battle, he doesn't feel like paying the rent, so it's left to me, goes to work when he feels like it, helps my sister with her house but won't with me etc. etc. etc....I could go on and on with them!!

I have a GP and a psychologist that I should go back to (sessions are free and they're within walking distance), but I wonder if it's worth it when my psychologist said me running an instagram account for a celebrity is me living in fantasy land

I won't write any more, because I can't see anyone replying. I've got nothing and nobody and just want to forget...

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Thanks Birdy...

I just don't know about anything anymore. I'm sitting here crying wondering if my life will ever change. I feel so lonely...

It's obvious that no one can be bothered with me and wants to be my friend...and who knows if I'll even get a job if I miraculously get this degree!

I always wondered why I was born and I probably just shouldn't have been

Birdy77
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

I understand those feelings MF. I have wondered the same thing about myself.

Not pleasant thoughts to have ...

I'm sorry you're feeling so lonely. Loneliness is a very difficult place to be.

Well, we care about you MF, and we can be bothered with you ...

How are you today?

🌻birdy

Not great today, really.

I did my dishes and vacuumed the floors, now I'm back in bed watching netflix.

I just couldn't find enough focus to do uni work. It's hard when you feel like packing it in...

I know I'm making it harder for myself, but I'll try and get it all over the weekend.

I'm hanging by a thread and it's fraying more by the day...

I just don't know what to do anymore...I want to scream and/or cry and I can't seem to do either.

Hell, I don't even have anyone I can talk to.

Nothing I do helps me feels normal...

Birdy77
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hi MF

I hardly ever feel normal. I don't really know how to a anymore.

You are ok. You are safe, you have buddy.

If you're in danger, do you have the numbers to call?

We're here with you.

Breathe in and out, and keep doing that.

We're here with you.

🌻birdy

The tears have come now, maybe that'll help some.

I know the BB number, but there's no danger...I just feel numb and lost. I can't believe I'm 38 and don't have any friends 😞

I've contacted the uni today about a disability access plan, maybe that will help with uni stress, study etc. etc.

I don't know where to turn, there's nobody around but Buddy

Birdy77
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Let yourself cry, that can help.

I find sobbing in the shower a massive release.

I think as we age, the circle of friends reduces dramatically (unless you have a highflying life).

I am 40 (almost 41) and I hardly have any friends. As a fairly solitary person, I think can come to terms with this.

Plus, I have you guys here!

Buddy is good.

I have my furry guys, and that's good too.

Love,

🌻birdy

My circle of friends can't reduce...it's at zero. Pretty much has been my whole life...the defective leper I am...

Yep, here and Buddy are all I've got. When Buddy goes, life will be pure hell.

Birdy77
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

I don't like to hear you talk of yourself like that.

You may develop some friendships at uni.

I'm glad you contacted the uni, it should help you.

Our furbabies give us so much love and joy ... they provide the happiest of our days and then one of the worst days .... I am sure Buddy would want you to have another furfriend to love in the future when he s gone ...

Uni friendships are a bust so far...I asked my group work people if we're friends, they all saw what I typed and didn't even bother to say anything.

Not sure how it's going to happen when I'm external.

I wanted to stay in bed and hide from the world this morning, but Buddy was having none of that, so I guess I'm taking him out and then going to buy some bread. All I wanted to do was hide...