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I'm really trying to feel better about myself
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I don't know where to start with this, there's so much in my head right now...
I've got nothing, but my cat...no job, no friends, far from a family priority etc. etc.
My mum died 10 years ago on 26.2 and I still miss her so badly, she was the only person I had who was in my corner. Everyone else (family, friends that currently aren't talking to me) say I play the victim and am all "woe is me"
My sister's said I look like a silverback gorilla and other such things. She's a bully who gets away with it all, because she's the favourite and "normal" (kids, married, no mental illness - although I have doubts about that last one). My dad's called me fat and said that "You're bent like your mother" (she was bipolar). He lives with me and getting him to do anything is such a battle, he doesn't feel like paying the rent, so it's left to me, goes to work when he feels like it, helps my sister with her house but won't with me etc. etc. etc....I could go on and on with them!!
I have a GP and a psychologist that I should go back to (sessions are free and they're within walking distance), but I wonder if it's worth it when my psychologist said me running an instagram account for a celebrity is me living in fantasy land
I won't write any more, because I can't see anyone replying. I've got nothing and nobody and just want to forget...
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Hi Narelle,
I have had muscle spasms in my back and now have gastro since last night.
Hope to feel better tomoz. Will be back as soon as I feel better.
Glad you took the car out, that makes me happy for you xx
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Hope you feel better soon Carol. I've had a migraine since last night so am pretty much in the same boat.
I had a pretty horrific night last night inside my head, so I just want to hide again. I've taken one step forward and four steps back, it seems 😞
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Hi Narelle,
Wednesday's thread is still there, I hope you have found it. She is very ill at the moment in hospital. Hopefully they are caring for her well but she needs her rest right now. We will hear from her when she feels up to it.
Don't be disheartened lovely. You are doing such a great job. I am so proud of you for all you are achieving. Keep up the great work. Did you go for a drive?
I am suffering from a dreadful case of gastro so not on as much at the moment, sleeping all around the clock as I have no energy cause I can't eat.
Still here for you though xx
Dear Emmy, lots of love to you beautiful. Keep positive lovely.
Me xx
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I'm so sorry Narelle.
I'm really struggling tonight myself and want to be on here but just can't cope with it all.
Again sorry.
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I haven't found Wednesday's thread, I'm not really in a state to even post there anyway
I haven't stopped crying for two days...my so called friends still hate me and I just don't know what I did to deserve zero friends. They say I like this life and need help and meds instead of even asking how I am. I must deserve all this, I feel like such an idiot for thinking we would be good friends and for trusting them
I'm not sure I'll be around much. I've got nothing!!
