I feel alone and I don't like the life I have

[mg24]

Hi, this is my second thread. I just have some other feelings I kind of wanna talk to someone about. (i'm 14)

I feel really alone. I don't have a best friend, but I don't have any other friends either. I hang out with this group but only because I've been with them since year seven and I don't want to look like a loner. There aren't really any people I can hang out with from my grade, I've definitely tried looking. It also feels like everyone thinks I'm a loser, people don't want to text me or talk to me at school. I'm part of two sport teams and I still can't find anyone. I know that friends will 'present themselves in time' and all these other things but I don't want to be alone for four years. I don't want to have to keep my feelings to myself all the time and never be invited anywhere.

I also went to England last year to visit my family and I miss it so much. My family can't really afford to go often but I feel like my family is missing me grow up and there are so many things and experiences and relationships I want to share with them. I can't go during two week breaks because we generally go for three weeks plus and I can't miss any school but my mum says that the six week holidays are too expensive and we won't like the weather. I tried to get there another way by going through a student exchange to just escape for a bit and experience something new and meet new people, but my mum shut that down. I've tried coming at this at every angle all my mum says is that I need to get over it and look at what I do have and stop being s negative but I don't know what there is to look at! I have no friends or social life, I personally hate Australia (no offence), and I'm going through some really hard feelings alone so I'm not sure what great things she's talking about. I don't want to do this life anymore, I hate it but there's nothing I can do about it. I also don't want to waste four years of my life, especially my teenage years. My parents say that if I'm going through something I should tell them or just someone except I don't have anyone to tell and they always ignore my feelings. I told my mum I wanted to move after high school and my mum said she would never forgive me if I did. I cry almost everyday because I want to go back so badly and she knows how much I miss it, and she's still saying this. I don't want to have to move away and never see her but I hate it here. I have no idea what to do or where to go.

[mg24]

Hey clo. I agree with highschool being important. And to be honest I don’t want to waste the main part of both my teenage and adolescent years because I have no friends and I’m not invited anywhere and I’m living a life I enjoy. I don’t want to waste the years where I’m young and pretty (not that I am but you know the saying pretty young thing, mainly the young part 😂) and I don’t have to worry about bills.

I find talking about random stuff therapeutic too. I’m the kind of person that likes telling people my favourite colour and stuff like that 😂

to be perfectly blunt maybe talking to your mum is a lot cause which sucks. I don’t want to sound like some unhelpful adult 🙂 or anything but, it may be scary but could you maybe book yourself and appointment somewhere or call a help line or Speek to a counsellor? It may sound scary or stupid but once you’ve started it, it might end up being what keeps you here, or/ and gets you through it. Ugh I’m so not going to be a therapist when I finish school.

Ooh survivor! I’m totally hooked on Riverdale! Also modern family and the Big Bang theory😂

feel better xx

[Guest_5921]

Hi mg24:

I know that you have been talking to chole.

But I want to share my story with you.

I had the same feelings you have, back when I was 13 ( I'm 15 now). I know that it's hard to live in country that you hate so much, as I hate Australia too, and I have told my mum that when I have finished my high school years, I am moving to London, where some of my aunts and uncles live. My mum has said that if move after high school I will never ever see her or my family here in Australia again.

So I have decided to focus on finishing high school, with or without friends and then once I have finished my high school years I am going to take a gap year and travel around Australia, and then once I get back from my trip I will work out if I really want to move to London.

Here are somethings that has helped me cope with high school and life:

1. Try talking to your parents
2. If you have a pet, take it for a walk
3. Try writing your feelings in a special book, but put it up so your siblings don't see it
4. If you have little siblings or baby sisters or brothers, play with them or tell them what you are feeling, as they don't really understand what you are saying and sometimes it just helps to get it of your chest
5. And try doing something that you love.

I don't know if this things will help you but just give them a go.

I hope to hear back from you and remember if all you need is to chat I am always here.

Love

Guest_5921 (AKA Frogy)

[Chloe_M]

Hey! I'm sure your pretty, but if not who cares, you have a beautiful soul 🙂 yeah i'm not looking forward to paying bills lol.

Yeah i am that person too. FYI my fave colour is yellow 😉 whats yours?

nah talking to her is a lost cause. I have an appointment at the local Headspace centre on Monday, I'm telling everyone about it on my thread after the appointment. my threads called "Advice on Seeking Professional Help: Trigger Warning Sexual Abuse, Self-Harm and Suicidal Feelings". You should check it out 🙂

You might not be a therapist when you leave school, but i will! I want to be a psych or counsellor or whatever. I love to help people lol.

Yeah i love survivor, i havent watched Riverdale or the others but i soooo want to. All my friends are like 'watch riverdale' so i will (eventually)

I am feeling better, how are you doing today?

😉 Chloe x

[mg24]

Hey clo 🙂

my favourite colour is baby blue (cause I’m so extra)

I’m so glad that you’ve booked that appointment!!! ... you’ve expirenced sexual abuse? And I’ll definiltey check it out. It’s great you love helping people!

You I’ve been doing pretty good today. For a start my mum is going to try and start easing my dad into the of us going to England next year which is cool. Also my mum said I can get my help pierced (I’m waiting until September because I have sport though!)

how are you doing, honestly? 🙂

[mg24]

Hey, it’s good to know someone’s on the same page as me. I started feeling the same way when I was 13 too. Does your mum just think you’ll completely relocate or does she mean that if you move she’ll be too mad to see you?

On one hand not having many friends makes it easier to focus on school work and I won’t have anyone to miss. Idk if that’s kind of sad though 😕 I’ve tried to talk to my mum, it’s kind of hard though. If you’ve read any of the other conversations I’ve had, she sometimes just doesn’t really listen. I have anonymous blog which is sort of like a journal? To be perfectly honest talking to my brother is a lost cause. He never listen he’s too immature. Which Kind of sucks because I wish we could have a more mature relationship although maybe when he’s older he’ll listen more.

Thanks for replying ❤️

[Chloe_M]

Heya!

Yeah I have experienced sexual abuse, only once last year but it was enough to impact on me greatly 😞

ooo have fun in England if you go. Alway wanted to go overseas but haven't yet, my fam and I are maybe going at the end of next year!

haha lucky also I might be getting my seconds pierced for my birthday fingers crossed lol

im feeling pretty good tbh. And tired. What about you?

💙chloe

its not baby blue but is close 😘

[Chloe_M]

Hi Frogy

Just posted on your thread hope you're doing okay ❤️💙

Good luck with whatever happens and know that I am here

[Guest_5921]

I do have my own Thread its called Help!!

[mg24]

Hey cloe. I’m so sorry to hear that. Of course it impacted you greatly, it doesn’t matter how many times. I don’t want to pry but how are you now? Where do you think your family is going!! I got my seconds in December, and don’t listen to what people say, because they don’t really hurt. There no worse than your firsts. It’s good to hear your good!! I feeling pretty well too, my mum mention of another top has given me so hope :)I’m sooo tired too

💛💛💛

[Chloe_M]

Hey mg24 I'm okay now but for a few months whenever I saw him I would panic and usually try and hide behind my best friend lol. (FYI was not my bf/best friend it was a guy I'd known since kindergarten who I thought was my friend).

We are going to Austria and Italy/Spain (hopefully!)

yeah I reckon seconds and thirds wouldn't hurt much but other ear piercings would hurt more I reckon.

haha I think everyone's tired lately. Ready for school tomorrow? Just think, whatever lesson you're in at 11am, I'll be at headspace!

Ya know this is random I've been trying to think of what your name might be... I'm guessing it starts with m... Melinda...Melanie...Miranda...Milly...Megan...? Lol you don't have to tell me but been wondering 😉

chloe 💙💛