I can't find the right place for me to post

[Moonstruck]

I don't know any more where to put a new thread if I make one, or which ones to join in. I always used Anxiety because that is my major condition but that has been relatively under control lately - I feel Depressed today - but I don't qualify for the topics there either. I'm depressed mainly because there doesn't seem a place for me. I love some of the threads and personal thoughts for example in Staying Well, but I can't join in there, because I don't have any tips for Staying Well.

I tend to have almost paranoid thoughts through over-thinking "problems" that I would like to talk over but don't know where to talk them over before they reach the paranoid stage...I want to avoid that. I join in the Social threads saying light hearted jokey things because thats the only place I seem to belong.

I dwell on any problems my adult sons have in various aspects of their life and want to "fix things for them" - our relationship is very loving and close though - they are wonderful to me - so there is no real "problem" with my relationship with them....so I don't seem to belong in the "relationships, family" section either do I?

I worry about them all the time - when I tried to express this on forum I think it was misconstrued that I had "empty nest syndrome" - trying to adapt to my sons' leaving home....No, that's not it...they've been gone for years and years...I am a grandmother.

I liked the Getting to Know You, or is it Me? thread very much - but have been given suggestions how to start my own thread and what section to use etc and get the feeling I'm being steered away from there too.

So I am still confused. I don't feel particularly anxious today, so this shouldn't even be in Anxiety! Do you see my dilemma?

In fact the more I write the more I feel like crying - I don't know where to go next.

[CMF]

Dear Moon 

So sorry to hear you are suffering so much.  What have dr's said? You shouldn't be in so much pain. 

Cmf x

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

I'm so sorry to hear the pain has not cleared up as yet, it is a truly horrible thing to live with all the time, and as you say it is so limiting, all the usual things you do are just too painful. Hopefully all those medical visits wil pay dividends and the matter will be sorted.

I don't see anything wrong wiht ringing that line. My own problem was that I'd made up my mind they could not be any help. Eventually I did  and sometimes I've been quite surprised how well the call has gone - and I've felt better afterwards

Act III is the one wiht the surprise ending, so I'm sure things will get better and bowling will be in reach again

"I hope to-morrow will be a fine day, Lane."

"It never is, sir."

"Lane, you're a perfect pessimist."

"I do my best to give satisfaction, sir."

Croix

[Moonstruck]

"Lane....why are there no cucumber sandwiches"?

"They had run out of cucumbers at the market Sir"

"I'm terribly sorry Aunt Augusta, there appears to be no cucumber sandwiches"

"It really doesn't matter dear boy...I had a crumpet with Lady Harbury"

(  by memory only....I have quite a brilliant memory....practically photographic!)

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

Apart from the fact it was more than one crumpet pretty well spot-on

Lady B: I hadn't been there since her poor husband's death. I never saw a woman so altered; she looks quite twenty years younger
Algy: I hear her hair has turned quite gold from grief.

-C

[Moonstruck]

"It has certainly changed its colour, although for what reason I cannot say."

[Moonstruck]

Hello friends...sorry I've lost touch with many of you. Just an update in case you're the remotest bit interested...on my chronic 24/7 pain.  fingers crossed, but new stronger medication GP finally assured by a specialist that would not harm me nor my liver....has given some relief so far and its 11.24am...which is a miracle in itself.  no I won't get too excited and just be quietly relieved, with a glimmer of hope and walking on this ice hoping it will last.   I also have care plan for free visits with physio while waiting for my PILates appointments to fit me in.

I have been, as you know very very low, the lowest I can recall ever in spirits and even the tiniest bit of hope or relief.   Oh please tell me I will get a bit better, even slowly.    My emotions reached an all time low...had dire thoughts...I don't want to spend this third act of my life in unbearable pain!  It is a mental and emotional situation I have never been in before.    

Perhaps all Drs should be well educated in Chronic Pain Management and how it can become a Life or Death situation!  My GP and I sort of "changed places" with me knowing more about it than she does!  These past months have been very very sad and torturous for me.    anyway I am alive, for now.....Moon S

[Paw Prints]

Hello Dear Moon,

That is such good news that at last you have some pain relief which is working for you. I agree GPs need more training on chronic pain, especially to teach them to listen to their patients & be willing to consider a variety of possible causes/treatments. I swear Woofa's vet has more understanding of pain management than most GPs I've had. 

Hugs

Paws

[Moonstruck]

Hello Paws...this will be quick although I could write more.  I noticed Grandy I think touched on the very subject of when your Dr etc is much younger than you etc etc.

however with me...I got up the courage recently to say seriously face to face without hers being glued to my files on her computer...."I don't think you have been listening to what I am saying all these weeks. i.e.  you don't really "Hear me"!!  I am in severe pain...ALL the time....24/7. I cannot and will not bear it much longer!  Are you hearing what I am saying?

I have an aquaintance/friend who I discovered has severe similar pain condition too....and feel much more relief after talking to her....and she talks back about her problem of course...much better to talk to than my Dr.   We understand what the other is going through.  She is a tough lady and we both confessed there have been times we have simply broken down in tears!!   Tears of pain!  My Dr does not see that.  I cannot cry on demand. several times I have begun to feel she has put me in the "old age typical wear and tear on the body...nothing unusual, "....perhaps nothing unusual....except dark thoughts of another  decade or more of pure hell!!  If only my DR had prescribed these stronger pills I could have avoided weeks of misery!

[mmMekitty]

Hi Moon, Paws & everyone

I am very glad you were able to talk to your GP & speak straight to the heart of how you feel having to cope with the pain everyday. & also that now you have some meds that have helped some.

I believe chronic pain is perhaps one of the most difficult things we some people face in their daily lives. I know what I deal with is nowhere near the most serious pain some people live with, but still it has had a definite effect on my mood, motivation, concentration, sleep, & more.

I also have had that 'you are getting old' line since I was 50. & I've been told I would be all fine if I lost weight.

Wow, wouldn't that be great - if I could easily lose weigt while continuing to be dealing with pain & everything would magically be all healthy again!?

It's kind of like my mental health - I have to learn how to manage as best I can, keep talking to the GPs, with even a slight hope remaining that one day one will understand & know what is going on with this feeling in my leg, or better ways to deal with the arthritis, something in my back? 

& no, I don't think GPs understand chronic pain very well. Pain management could be an entire speciality in itself.

As you may recall, I am trying to lose the weight by eating healthier & exercising to become stronger & fitter because that's how I understand I could better cope with ongoing pain, & getting old. I don't feel really old, yet, but definitely heading in that direction, (not that I get any choice in that).

Hugzies everyone

with schnozbops to Woofa

mmMekitty

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

I've returned back and found myself in a mire of pie and custard so decided to talk to someone sensible instead of the mischief makers (yes, you know who you are, stop peeking!)

While you said you had a few words for your doctor did it do any good -do you have a more effective pain management medication now? I certainly hope so. I've a range of meds and can use that to best effect rather than just having one.

It sometimes is quite hard to convince a GP you are the expert on you, and their job is to assist using their knowledge to help you, not ignore or discount what you are saying.

Things can most often be better than they are, it is a question of getting professionals to administer pain relief.

My only downside is exercise, the best one of the lot is walking, unfortunately the  weather is not always that cooperative

This quote came from Jason King in "Department S" but was around well before that

"Whenever I get the urge to exercise, I lie down until the feeling passes away."

Makes a change for OW:)

Croix