I can't find the right place for me to post

[Moonstruck]

I don't know any more where to put a new thread if I make one, or which ones to join in. I always used Anxiety because that is my major condition but that has been relatively under control lately - I feel Depressed today - but I don't qualify for the topics there either. I'm depressed mainly because there doesn't seem a place for me. I love some of the threads and personal thoughts for example in Staying Well, but I can't join in there, because I don't have any tips for Staying Well.

I tend to have almost paranoid thoughts through over-thinking "problems" that I would like to talk over but don't know where to talk them over before they reach the paranoid stage...I want to avoid that. I join in the Social threads saying light hearted jokey things because thats the only place I seem to belong.

I dwell on any problems my adult sons have in various aspects of their life and want to "fix things for them" - our relationship is very loving and close though - they are wonderful to me - so there is no real "problem" with my relationship with them....so I don't seem to belong in the "relationships, family" section either do I?

I worry about them all the time - when I tried to express this on forum I think it was misconstrued that I had "empty nest syndrome" - trying to adapt to my sons' leaving home....No, that's not it...they've been gone for years and years...I am a grandmother.

I liked the Getting to Know You, or is it Me? thread very much - but have been given suggestions how to start my own thread and what section to use etc and get the feeling I'm being steered away from there too.

So I am still confused. I don't feel particularly anxious today, so this shouldn't even be in Anxiety! Do you see my dilemma?

In fact the more I write the more I feel like crying - I don't know where to go next.

[Paw Prints]

Hello dear Moon.

Oh lass you are doing it tough at the moment aren't you. I hope the tests the doctor ordered have given her a course of action to help you to mend soon.

Hugs

Paws

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

Life is certainly handing you a hard time at the moment. I guess you did more damage in that fall than you thought and I'm glad you have seen your GP - sensible of oyur son to suggest it.

Walking on crutches is a right pain, the worst bit is trying to carry things, even a simple cuppa.

I hope the problem with your car is not one of those expensive ones but easily and quickly fixed - though I'd not know if you can drive it straight away.

Old age does have it downsides, but that does not mean you can't heal, I'd think it highly probable this episode will pass. Please don't try to push oyurself too much.

I don't know your sister or her situation so cant really comment on her wishes , though I'm sure having you near is a comfort

Croix

[Moonstruck]

Dear Croix....I am still alive. Pain is getting under control but will take time. Going back to Pilates this coming week and although feel I am starting at Square One there again...I have found it so helpful in a more slow gentle way over past couple of years...I am ready to begin again...I think.   Anyway I have to"move" somehow don't I? Things keep happening and wondering why so much occurred one after the other...like one dramatic scene after the other, but not knowing exactly who and what will occur.  Flying blind I guess......my old desktop computer is on the way out..more and more things can't be updated and a friend actually had a "spare laptop" of the same famous name which is the only one, { and most expensive ) type I am used to for well over 20 years.  They wiped it and did whatever was needed for me to use and of course I haven't a clue.   Will have to get an expert to "teach me".     { if they say, "just play around with it"  I shall scream}  people our age just want to "get it right" first time.  "just telll me which buttons to press"...I don't want to "play around". Thats the next thing to deal with...oh and another I nearly forgot...got free hearing aids, not because of deafness, hearing things etc...but been having trouble with" clarity" with shows, movies etc on TV....volume fine, but their dialogue not clear...well it is now...miraculous change!!  So I am trying to practise putting them in and out etc etc, changing batteries....all fingers and thumbs.    all this "stuff" keeps happening to me.   I just wish I could "walk" a longer way...a decent walk, along the beach or whatever, like I used to...I really miss that!   It's just too painful.  Hope everyone out there in BB land is doing better than me...love you all....xxx

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

Why don't you "just play around with it"? (Croix waits for scream:)

Seriously I'm glad you had a bit of fortune in getting a replacement computer and I"m sure you will master it in time. The ideas will be the same, just the menus different.

Pilates sounds a good choice, not quite a workout but definitely strengthening plus good for precision and control. I hope you can easy back into it without trouble. Maybe in time it wil help you to walk further so you can enjoy the beach

I use hearing aids and to find it helps wiht the clarity of shows on TV and radio. While fumbling wiht batteries might seem a pan it's got it's up-side. I tried out hearing aide=s wiht inbuilt rechargeable batteries, which sounded a good idea. Unfortunatly I have quite long days and the batteries gave out mid-evening, leaving me with no choice but to recharge them. As a result I did not have them for the rest of the evening. At least wiht replaceable batteries you can put in new ones straight away with minimal disruption.

Hope all the pain goes soon

Croix

[mmMekitty]

Hello Moon, Croix & everyone

Hearing aid/s take a little getting used to. I often think I ought to wear my hearing aid at home because the voices of my text-to-speech reader & my tele & on some books & television shows are not clear enough & I keep wating to listen back again. I can't do that with television shows unless I watch them on iview, or something like that, but but backtracking gets annoying & takes extra time - but I don't want to hear my neighbours any more than I already do... that's my delema.

I didn't know there are rechargable hearing aid batteries. I guess I'd keep a few charged up so I could easily swap when one in the hearing aid goes flat.

I'm not happy about just chucking the flat batteries as I've been doing.

Moon, Pilates sounds a great idea for you. Getting movement back is also important.

I've been enjoying the hydrotherapy pool. My back was hurting last Monday, but in the pool it was fine. For helping you to recover from your injury, I'd suggest talking to a physiotherapist or an exercise physiologist about what might be the best for you. 

Getting back to beach is a great goal to help you stay motivated to do your exercises regularly.

Well, friends, getting late & I have to be up early-ish, so goodnight, plesant dreams,

Hugzies

mmMekitty

[Croix]

Dear MK~

The rechargeable batteries were built in to the hearing aids and could not be taken out, which is why when they went flat they had to be put on a charger, leaving one without any hearing aids at all. That's why I use the model that has disposable batteries. I too dislike this form of waste, but dislike being hearing aid-less worse:(

On the good side they go directly to and from my phone, allowing me to listen to phone calls, podcasts etc with clarity. There is supposed to be an attachment that generates BlueTooth from a TV which the aids can pick up, but I've not had much luck with that. Maybe others might.

You are right, having an inducement to exercise is excellent, mine is the chance to walk along the riverbank (and get mobbed by sundry waterfowl).

Croix

[Moonstruck]

Croix, meKitty, Quirky and other lovely people....I am typing this on my laptop..how streamlined, clean and lovely it is. Yes I am quickly....I think....finding my way around...."playing around "I guess its called".  Hearing aids are terrific...went for my follow up appt with the lovely audiologist yesterday ...was having trouble changing batteries which seems common...don't have skinny nimble fingers......but am fine now I think.   Main problem now is constant pain...lower back, hip, a legacy from my fall etc.....the leg has healed up and I am ready to resume life but this pain gets me down.  I am dying to get back to Pilates class which are so heavily booked but need to do the right exercises.

Both boys of mine seem well and apart from this physical pain I am still surviving.  I can't believe I am enjoying this laptop I could never have afforded myself...{ was passed onto me from someone who didn't use it any more...and just the right brand...yay!).....love to all...Moon S.

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

You sound happier now, and I'm really glad. I guess some things are working out OK. That laptop sounds exactly right and you are mastering it, which I guess we all knew you would - you being you. Your the same person who straightened out your bosse's work after all.

To have some harmony with your sons, not having to worry so much about separations and all is a blessing. Do you get a chance to see or talk with your grand-kids?

I change batteries over a bowl, towel or tray, so if I drop them I can pick them up straight away. The days of scrabbling all over the floor looking for them are gone - thank goodness. I find hearing aids make a huge difference, well worth the trouble.

I hope you get back to Pilates and the exercises soon ,it's a pity the pain is still hanging on.

Does it look like there are any tournaments on the horizon?

Croix

[CMF]

Dear Moon 

Great to hear you sounding in better spirits. Shame about the back pain, perhaps on your new laptop you could look up some gentle stretches & do them at home? Maybe that could get you through till you can get back to pilates.

Luv ya

Cmf x

[Moonstruck]

Dear CMF, Croix MeKitty and friends....sorry its been so long. Truth is, I have been "taken over" well that's what it feels like.....chronic pain...yes it's getting worse not better. First Pilates day that I was good at was like Square One, each simple move was agony....wrenching, horrible. Never had to cope with pain 24/7 before......it sort of infiltrates your whole being...mentally and emotionally cruel.  To walk...just walk...anywhere is so very painful, each step.  Driving a car I dread the thought, but I cannot be motionless 24/7.....its making my mood so depressed.

Painkillers,except for the banned illegal ones I assume.....aren't effective enough for this. It is impossible to "rest". or lie flat all day. So sick of Dr and X Ray appointments etc.....have some next week.  No outing, conversation with dear friends etc take my mind/body from this roaring monster that rages through and over and around me...ALL the time!

I don't want Act Three of my life to BE like this!!  I have things to do.....even simple things like shopping, are a marathon I dread the night  before.  Lowering myself into the car seat is PAINFUL......how much longer??

Croix you asked about "tournaments" You've gotta be kidding!  If I was committed to one now I simply would have no choice but to pull out.....no way could I show up or even walk around when I was there!   Going this weekend as spectator and even dreading that.....I am so low.

(son seems to be coping, kids love being with him etc. apart from the huge financial loss he seems to be bravely trying to forge a new life for himself.  Other son and his partner are doing well....and these are the only positives I can see in my life)

Tempted last few days to ring Phone Line but keep putting it off!  What can they do?  Love to all. Moon S