I can't find the right place for me to post

[Moonstruck]

I don't know any more where to put a new thread if I make one, or which ones to join in. I always used Anxiety because that is my major condition but that has been relatively under control lately - I feel Depressed today - but I don't qualify for the topics there either. I'm depressed mainly because there doesn't seem a place for me. I love some of the threads and personal thoughts for example in Staying Well, but I can't join in there, because I don't have any tips for Staying Well.

I tend to have almost paranoid thoughts through over-thinking "problems" that I would like to talk over but don't know where to talk them over before they reach the paranoid stage...I want to avoid that. I join in the Social threads saying light hearted jokey things because thats the only place I seem to belong.

I dwell on any problems my adult sons have in various aspects of their life and want to "fix things for them" - our relationship is very loving and close though - they are wonderful to me - so there is no real "problem" with my relationship with them....so I don't seem to belong in the "relationships, family" section either do I?

I worry about them all the time - when I tried to express this on forum I think it was misconstrued that I had "empty nest syndrome" - trying to adapt to my sons' leaving home....No, that's not it...they've been gone for years and years...I am a grandmother.

I liked the Getting to Know You, or is it Me? thread very much - but have been given suggestions how to start my own thread and what section to use etc and get the feeling I'm being steered away from there too.

So I am still confused. I don't feel particularly anxious today, so this shouldn't even be in Anxiety! Do you see my dilemma?

In fact the more I write the more I feel like crying - I don't know where to go next.

[Moonstruck]

Thanks old friend. I recall the old Forum had a "New Comments" I could click on...and see at a glance any I wanted to answer, any from friends, any I wanted to contribute to etc.    I can't find that New Comments option any more.   I did find one the person headed Christmas Dread, so I answered that one.....as you could see what I still think of Christmas!!!  Yes thank God it is over...unbearable this year.

anything interesting coming up?  well I have been awarded a special recognition award that will be presented one day soon.   I want to say "a few words" but very shy speaking in front of large groups of people!!!

{  if you know what I mean...hahahah....very funny)   so I may just turn chicken and say simply Thank You..

[mmMekitty]

Hi Moon

Congratulations on your special Recognition Award/ 

I'm glad to see you & Croix have met up again here. [Happy smiling LRC]

I have an idea, Moon, if you know some people in the audience, speak your words as if only to them, & put the fact that others will hear you to the back of your mind. & of-course, there is always the good old, 'imagine the audience all in their undies' plan. I would also suggest, taking some deep & long breaths, like what you might do to relax your body, which works just as well for the mind, in the moments when the award is being introduced & announced. I'm sure many people will appreciate if you only say a few words, rather than getting up there & telling your whole life story, or sounding like a pollititian going on & on. Oh, & dress comfortably, remember your deodorant & to brush your teeth & hair - but don't put the toothpaste in your hair!

I like Croix's idea - some help to find those old friends, in the way Croix has offered, would be great, here on BB, all the time for anyone ...  'Super Walrus' though he is, I think that would be a stretch even for him to manage on his own.

Hugzies to you & Croix. & Sophie_M

mmMekitty

[Croix]

Dear Moon (with a wave to the LRC)~

Firstly congratulations on the recognition ward, I'm sure it is no more the you merit. I'm sure you can slip into the persona of a confident glamour celebrity and pass of your acceptance words as no more than the everyday occurrence that is your due:) I'm sure your audience would be more than disappointed if you did chickened out - so give them a treat!

I'm afraid 'recent posts' is no longer wiht us, which does make it hard to see who has posted without visiting each thread you are interested in one at a time. 'Notifications' is supposed to tell you, as is 'Profile, sadly neither works reliable for me.

Dear MK, when you say don't put toothpaste in your hair are you talking from experience?

Croix

[mmMekitty]

Hi Moon, please excuse  me ... Nah, Croix, I get my brushes confused! (If you believe that ... not quite there, yet. So far, I go to put something in the fridge that should be in the cupboard, & vice versa. Or I just leave the thing out on the counter...

Hugzies to you both. 

[CMF]

Hi dear Moon 

Congratulations on your award.

I too cannot connect with many here anymore but I have the main ones like yourself & rx who are long time friends.

Take care 

Luv ya

Cmf

[Moonstruck]

Thanks Croix......mmm....yeah I think I could "slip into" that persona you mentioned...I think I know what I will wear, so that's the main thing taken care of.....Yes of course I deserve it...about time!!....look after yourself...xx

[Ggrand]

Hi Moon and all your beautiful friends..

Congratulations beautiful lady for your award…

I too am so pleased that Christmas is over….unfortunately now coming up soon is Easter…Although I believe in the spiritual side of it…I hate how the media has turned it around into a huge gift giving, happy family gatherings..when for a lot of people struggling both financially and mentally it is only making them feel like they have in a way failed for that past year….by being put on show so others can out-buy their gifts or to not understand how mentally they are not ready to participate in family gatherings….or that they are alone with no family able to visit them….so sad how it’s all now commercialised…

I know deep in my heart, that you giving a small speech of gratitude and thanks at your awards ceremony will go very good, because your words will be from your heart…

Wishing you all the best sweetheart, in everything you do…you are one awesome, strong and beautiful lady…

Thinking of you with kindness sweet Moon..

Grandy..

[Moonstruck]

Thank you so much Grandy.  Life has been so hard for so many of us in many different ways.   But the caring and sharing that we all do with each other is a sign of our shared "human ness" on this journey we all take and encounter road traps and detours and flooded creeks along the way that make us feel we cannot go on.   Then one of our BB friends says beautiful things about us, and to us.....and it makes such a difference....and we struggle to pick ourselves up out of the mud on the road and put one foot in front of the other......

And if we persevere we sometimes find a little oasis where we can sit, even for a little while in the shade and by the cool water and we remember how to breathe again.

when we consider the immense and cruel roadblocks that can get in our way, it is amazing how we get up and continue at all......as we are all aware...some people don't get up and decide not to continue down the road.  A lot of us have even been so close to feeling that way....we can understand why they give up.

Keep on walking Grandy....if you and my other friends on Forum walk beside me...I'll keep walking too...deal?

[mmMekitty]

Deal! [LRC purrs & struts alongside BB members (too many to mention by username here).]

& I wouldn't say 'no' to the occasional ride in someone else's arms.

Hugzies

mmMekitty

[quirkywords]

Moon 

I will keep walking with you and others. We are here for  each other especially in those silent times times.

I find when I struggle I read about others and it helps.