DEPRESSION: Fight it or embrace it?

[Doolhof]

Right now I feel like I don't have the energy to do either. Just existing is difficult enough. I've been trying to "float" this one out but the Black Dog is right there trying to drag me under.

My Psychologist tells me to embrace the depression, to accept it, to make the most of those rotten days when you feel like you can't do a thing. To just live with it and the sting of the depression will ease away. If I don't feed it, it will give up.

I must be doing something wrong as all that seems to do is escalate how horrid I feel, I break down in tears and feel like "what is the point" this monster is winning.

Depression. BPD. Stress. Suicidal thoughts. Maybe I do need to find ways to embrace these issues before they totally destroy me. But how?

Maybe I could try poetry, I've already painted a couple of pictures showing what is going on in my head, maybe more paintings or drawings might help get the muck out.

I'm just so tired and exhausted. Mental health issues suck!

Fighting it is exhausting. Trying to embrace it is soul destroying.

ACCEPTANCE! Where the hell is ACCEPTANCE! Think it ran away with HOPE!

Wishing you all a sense of acceptance and hope!

Cheers from a battered feeling Dools

[demonblaster]

haha when Mrs Noah was a girl Hey all 🙂

I've heard acupunctures good from most I've spoken to, yikes you poor thing.

I'm with Pammy not that any sport excites me on the box but don't mind Boxing, tennis and basketball, actually AFL's not bad.

A friend was 16 at the time I think and she crocheted so fast you couldn't see what she was doing imagine how she is now for speed. Sounds nice your blanket Dools 🙂
Sil (sister in law) did one, got it on the spare bed, pretty and they're warm too.

Preparations going well for your Jungle party Dools, its all coming together nicely, fun aye 😄

As long as you know which ways up you're doing well. How's the heart treating you these days.

Do you still want reminders for back excercises?

All best to you all 🙂

[Doolhof]

Hi PamelaR, Deebi and All,

My husband was really frustrated by the Adelaide Crows in the last quarter and turned the channel before the end of the game. My parents had phoned also and we talked for almost an hour which is a bit of a rarity but oh so very lovely!

Thanks for the offer of a reminder for the exercises DB I have a note on the bench...and still forget sometimes.

I will do my stretches soon, have breakfast and go for a walk. I need to catch up on my study as well, so will try and do more stretches while I am sitting at the computer and have a good stretching session in the afternoon.

Hopefully I will be too busy today to allow depression to take a hold. We have friends coming over tonight for dinner and to play some board games. It will be a lovely evening.

Hope you all have a good day! It is going to be a hot one here.

Cheers all from Dools

[Ggrand]

Hello Dools,

Im really happy you enjoyed your talk time with your parents, that would have put some light in your day. It sounds like you enjoyed it a lot..

keeping busy I feel is the best way to keep depression away for a while, which gives " our mind a holiday" Tony wk. told me that once and I like that idea.. Of our minds taking a holiday,

I hope you enjoyed your walk and spotted some birds, flowers Eric to make it more enjoyable and mindful, although your walks are alway pleasurable to read about.

Enjoy your dinner tonight with your friends, and your board games...Spending time with friends is the best distraction for depression that you can ever get..

Hope your day was good and I hope your night even better.

kind thoughts,

Karen..Grandy

[PamelaR]

Hello Dools (wave to others)

Ouch, fancy changing channel before the end of the game. I like AFL out of all the leagues and used to watch it occasionally, but have not done so for many years. But I would be a little upset to have it turned off before the end (even though one knew the outcome)! It would be like walking out on a basketball match when you knew your team wasn't going to win. Couldn't do that.

Did you get your exercises done? I did quite a bit of walking today, bird watching and photographing with friends. Saw some interesting birds, though was a little disappointed that there weren't many around. However, I did a bit of still life photographs.

How did your dinner with friends go?

Kind regards

PamelaR

[Doolhof]

Hi All,

Struggling a little, not too involved with the forum right now.

My compulsory study is doing my head in as is this horrid depression. A bit tricky trying to write appropriate answers when what I really want to do is quit and run away!

Yesterday I was rather stressed and depressed so thought I would get all those good hormones active and went for a walk and kept on walking and crying and walked some more. Then I stopped and realised I had to walk home again!

I was on a bush track so couldn't even phone my husband to ask him to come and get me! At least I slept a little better last night after a 2 hour walk and a bucket load of pain medication.

Hope to be back on the forum for a while tomorrow!

Cheers from Dools

[demonblaster]

Dear Dools 🖐 to everyone

Very sorry to hear you're struggling dear friend 🤗

I love and admire how you push through like you do, honestly you're such an inspiration and light to so many I want amongst many here to be with you and help you find your light

Remember Dools this too will pass with time

With you every step of your journey you amazing good lady

Peace wished ☺

[PamelaR]

Hi Dools

Sorry to hear you're not in a good space atm. Sit back for awhile. You are so good at giving of yourself to others. Let us give to you.

I missed a post about your compulsory study. What are you studying?

Are you just wanting to run away atm from study because you are depressed?

Or is your study causing your depression? I know when I was studying - I always had to have the best answers, my personal best mark, never anything below a distinction. That it itself drove my anxiety through the roof and consequently my depression.

So pleased you went for a walk today (even though it was painful - hope that settles soon). 2 hours is a long time. Know what you mean though - start walking, start thinking and before you know it you've walked an 1hr and then you have to turn around and walk back another 1hr.....

Maybe the elephants can do some good with sinking your depression in the river tonight.

Loads of virtual hugs. Lots of care. Be very very kind to yourself wonderful person!

PamelaR

[Ggrand]

Hello Dools,

Im really sorry you're struggling so much with depression.

I can relate to you wanting to run away from your studies, or is it just everything. I think we really only want to run away from our thoughts, but I have found out that they follow us everywhere like a shadow.

Maybe Dools if studying gets to hard due to depression, maybe put a short session of meditation in between, to relax you mind a little.

Your walk must have been really hard after crying, and knowing you had to walk back, I'm so proud of your strength and courage your showing in still doing your walks when so depressed you really are inspiring...Really Dools you do well.

Please Dools don't push yourself to much, be gentle with yourself and take time out to just sit outside with a tablecloth, pot of tea and some yummies, listen to the birds, feel the sun and cool breeze, breath and relax..

kind thoughts

Karen..../ Grandy

[Ggrand]

Good Morning Dools,

Im just popping in to let you know I'm sitting with you today, hoping today will be better then yesterday.

Please Dools, take time out of today for yourself, Maybe go outside, take your shoes of stand and feel the grass under your feet, watch those little birds in your back yard and listen to the beautiful music they make with there whistles, have a look at your colourful garden and smell the scents of the autumn air, Just a little you time to unwind and tune in with your senses and Mother Nature.

I hope today bring you some relief from your depression and some light enters your day today,

Kindness,

Karen..../Grand

[Birdy77]

Dear Dools (👋all you other lovelies)

Please go gently with your dear self. Don't push yourself. Take great care of you.

Remember what you tell us: it's ok to float for a while Dools.

Just float.

As Deebs said, this will pass.

Just go with it.

We're here with you.

Sending love and light your way dear Dools.

Love 🌻birdy