Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Ggrand]

Hello Hanna, Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Paws and everyone reading..🤗..

Thank you for your caring posts...

After work yesterday I had my monthly visit to my Dr...I spoke to her about my aches n pained and my jaw...which is okay now...just a little bruised feeling but that’s nothing much...

A new lady is starting next Tuesday...I have to teach her what to do....Oh the joy of trying to communicate with a stranger and telling them how to do things!...

Deebi...deeply sorry..I meant to say how happy I am for your mil...I cried with relief for you both when I read those words..not cancer...So very happy for you and mil...

I really hope you enjoy your beautiful company over a few days..I could imagine you would be an amazing hostess.💚..deep love to you my bbff..💚🧸🤗..please tell mil how happy I am for her..if I could I would be giving you both a hug right now..

Friday is my angiogram...Thursday begins another year older for me...My Dr. explained in detail what the procedure is..I thought I had before this test..but she said no I haven’t...I’m okay with it.,just not looking forward to waiting around etc in waiting room..

I was so buggered after work yesterday..When I got home..of course lots of happy squeals and barks from my fur babies...then some cuddles and kisses..,then I took my shoes off and layed down on my lounge.....A thought came to me..gratitude that I could do that...and not be running around making dinner and everything perfect for late husband....How good is that!...😁..I had a few seconds of a very deep peaceful and gratifying feeling...

Paws...I’m still looking at my pedal machine...I have been looking at a moon chair that came in last week and was put in the shop for sale...I was hoping so much that it didn’t sell so I could buy it...It didn’t ...so I purchased it and I think it’s ideal for my peddling machine...Now I’m looking at the both of them 😂..maybe tomorrow I’ll do more then just look at them..

Some people have been emptying there grass clippings around the tree and there’s lots of it....sad really...it’s awkward to get up to the trunk as the ground is very unsteady and wobbly...possibly more so me unsteady...

I hope everyone is doing okay and having the best day you can...

My care, hugs and love to you all..your all very awesome people..💜🦋🤗...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🌜🌟🌛..

[Hanna3]

Hi Grandy (waves to Deebi & everyone)

Oooh so Thursday is your birthday? You will have to have a cake to celebrate in the BB Cafe! Will your neighbour have you over for a cuppa and slice of cake to celebrate do you think? Something to take your mind off Friday and the angiogram... yes not something you look forward to but it might be a stepping stone to getting you to feel so much better.

With the new lady at the store - think about how anxious she might be, being new and learning everything new.. and you are so kind - that will help her settle in, having someone nice like you to explain things to her without getting cranky or impatient if she makes a mistake or forgets something.

And good for you for feeling good about yourself for a while and not having to run around after a husband, hooray! That was so nice to read, that you are being kinder to yourself.

Hugs from us here to you there and the furkids!

[demonblaster]

Hey there bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 Hannah Pawsy 🐾 and everyone 👋

Wow quite a bit going on my girl in your neck of the woods.
Loven some of it. Wow how good was it hearing you had some good feelings about not having to run around for hubby. Good job lovey!

Dear Grandy I'm glad you have someone else because that other chick sounded like a royal pain.
Agreed your beautiful nature will be of such comfort to the newby.
Another situation you'll get through and be stronger from. Hope she' lovely.

How gorgeous the squeals from the furs the sound so cute and loving. They scored big time with you.

Ah Friday, I had Thurs in my calendar.
I'm glad you're ok with it all. Good the Doc explained it all.

Oh so glad you poor love with your jaw. How awful to go through. Bruising feeling would be ouch enough. Wears you out doesn't it.

Thank you darlin that's quite ok lovey about mil. I told her straight away you'd be pleased.

He came for just one night, was going to be a couple but having car trouble so went home early today.
Great seeing him. Mr 😍 and him got on very well. Easy getting on with this gorgeous man. Friends a good bloke too.

😂 looking at the exercise and moon chair. You're a crack up. Love ya heaps 🤗

People must love the tree too. It sounds beautiful.

See you tomoz dear dear friend.
Very strong love for you bbff 🤗

PubAok lysvm yAdimh SSS eternal love care and friendship 😚👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤝🗯⚘👀

[demonblaster]

Hey my beautiful bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩

Heaps and heaps of 🤗😚 and love for a beautiful day.

Always deep love.

Happy birthday sweety lady.

I have mhw then must make my 🎁 for my besty friend.

Hope your days a good one darlin xx

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi Grandy

Just popping in to wish you lovely warm birthday wishes x

I hope this year of your life brings more of these moments:

"I had a few seconds of a very deep peaceful and gratifying feeling..."

How wonderful you recognised it! Big hugs, Katy

[Hanna3]

Happy Birthday Grandy! I hope you are doing something nice today to celebrate!

thinking of you and sending birthday cuddles from little Sam! oxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxox

[Guest_1055]

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Happy Birthday sweet Grandy

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[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Katy, Hanna, Shelly...

Thank you all for your happy birthdays....they mean a lot to me...

I had a lovely quiet day today..finished off cleaning my car from yesterday...sat outside and felt the sun on my skin...while I watched the birds and played Homescapes...

I had two beautiful phone call from my 2 sons...Which was nice...and made me feel loved...

Tomorrow came quickly..😂...Leaving early around 7.30am....have to fast from midnight..going to miss my morning cup of tea...not able to have anything except water until around 1pm...Maybe I’ll start a new diet at midnight tonight...😁..at least I know it will last 13 hours...before I give it away😁...

Was going to bed early tonight..but being a fan of Indiana Jones...looks like a tiring day tomorrow....doesn’t matter though..I can always have a sleep when I get home if I want to....

Cant wait for my 🎁 bbff....Virtual gifts are the most amazing gifts ever...because they come straight from our souls imagination...Big love dearest bbff...🐘🤗.🦄💜🦄.

I popped some popcorn after dinner...a little special treat..which I will enjoy watching Indiana Jones..

Hoping everyone is having a good night tonight..

My love, care and hugs everyone..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

[Hanna3]

Very best wishes for tomorrow Grandy I hope everything goes well for you, do try to let us know how you are sometime if you are able.

Happy birthday again, have a lovely night watching Indiana Jones, and thinking of you tomorrow hugs. xoxoxo

[Hanna3]

Grandy can you and or Katy or someone be kind enough to check by me later today I've put a post on my thread little Sam is dreadfully sick. going to the vet in another hour. thank you hugs. I am very frightened.