Advice for Seeking Professional Help (Trigger Warning- Sexual Abuse, Self-Harm, and Suicidal Feelings)

[Chloe_M]

Hey guys,

My life at the moment is really complicated, so I'll keep it brief:

• My parents are extremely strict- they don't let me do anything, when my boyfriend (who was also my best friend) broke up with me, they didn't know
• I was touched inappropriately last year by someone who I had known for years (not a family member, a peer)
• I suffered from depression(?) after the breakup for about 5 or so months (I don't have a diagnosis because my parents didn't know)
• I have stopped now, but I had been self-harming for around 2-3 of those months
• A couple of weeks ago, the depression and anxiety was so bad that I wanted to kill myself
• I am always anxious- I have a constant feeling of dread in my stomach
• I have panic attacks frequently that sometimes are for no reason- these involves sweating, shaking, hyperventilating and crying
• I really hate germs and am kind of obsessed with washing my hair and sanitising my hands
• A lot of my 'friends' judge me and some of them bitch behind my back
• I find that my anxiety is not at the front of my mind when I dance or when I am on this forum helping others
• My ex and I are friends again, but some weeks he ghosts me and flirts with random girls, and some weeks he acts like my boyfriend again
• I have only recently 'come out' to my parents about being anxious all the time
• I am going to see the school counsellor on Monday
• My parents are going to take me to a GP and get a referral to see a psychologist

I would like some advice on how to talk to a counsellor/psychologist and some general info about confidentiality and stuff like that.

Thanks guys xx

Chloe_M

[startingnew]

hi Chloe

i was just about to respond to your first post but read todays and think you need more support around that.

im sorry all that happened today. it seems things mightve built up abit and made you extra sensitive. im glad the teacher moved you away, people who dont have MH issues or have never had thoughts like that before take it as a joke and it shouldnt be but sometimes its just their figure of speech.

im sorry you self harmed, try to use some coping strategies even though thats the last thing on your mind. thats why i use the flashcards on a keychain. im sorry your dad got snappy at you too, i hope you retrieved your phone and ipad back and maybe hes had a chat to you about it. sometimes its better to let it go though if you were both angry.

on a positive note did you get your fish? how many did you get? did you name them?

good luck with your half yearlies too

[Chloe_M]

Hi Lici and Starts,

hope your days went well.

I was okay today, my closer friends that know about the SH were either sympathetic or pretending to be annoyed.

Starts yes i got my fish but sadly my mum has to take them to school as class pets :'( she teaches kindy and they named the gold and black one Fred and the orange and white one Goldie (why not the gold one Goldie? lol). We bought 4 but 2 are for my mums colleague. She got 2 orange and white ones.

Thanks for your responses x 🙂

[startingnew]

hey Chloe

i tend not to tell people except mh professionals about my SH, i dont find it neccessary tbh but its whatever you want to do though.

Aww i was hoping they were going to be your pets, maybe you could ask for some fish for xmas as a gift?

Hoping your going ok and your exams are nearly over

[Chloe_M]

They will be my pets... after the pets unit of work is done

fingers crossed none of the kids kill them haha

my exams are going okay, had science today that went well i think

my next one is PDHPE (assignment) due friday and a 'numeracy task' for history on friday (they have to assess numeracy and literacy in all KLAs) then i have a history essay due monday, my dance assignment is due next week too i think. Then i have a maths exam, an english exam and a commerce exam AND a history exam 😞

ill get through it lol

oh a KLA is a key learning area theres 6 i think

[startingnew]

haha i hope they are still lviing when they come back to you! but im glad they will be yours when the units over.

Gezz thats still alot of things to cover! at least one is over and done with. youll be busy for the next 2 weeks by the sounds of it. good luck! 🙂

[Lici]

Hi Chloe 🤗

Holy smokes that's more work than I have!! I'm sure you'll ace it all though!

I'll cross my fingers that none of the kids kill your fish as well!

I hope you're having a good night xx

Lici

[Chloe_M]

Hi guys, thanks for the well-wishes, I'm hoping I'll do well but I know my inner critic will torment me after and tell me I've failed, but I'll deal with it when it comes.

Lici yes i've got my toes and fingers crossed haha!

Have good days guys x

[startingnew]

Sending postive vibes and hugs to you Chloe

Hoping all your exams are going ok. You can ✅ them off as you go. This weeks almost over, only another week to go

[startingnew]

Hi chloe

Love your new avatar

Just popping in to say hello and hoping your going well with all your exams

[Chloe_M]

Hi

i ❤️ it too haha

I'm coping okay... there's a lot haha so i won't be here for long 🙂

hope you're doing ok too