Wondering how to deal with my depression after the loss of my nan.

[Scotty1256]

Hi all,

Im not sure if I'm posting in the right category, but in 2009 I lost my nan, at that time I was only 9 and so I didn't really understand what was happening. But I remember everything like it was yesterday. Since I've become older and more mature I've started to understand things better and I really wish I hadn't have. This is due to the loss of my nan (8 years ago) taking a massive toll on me in this current day and age. I'm really unsure how to cope with it.

The reason I feel I'm so upset about it is because,

1. My nan was my bestfriend
2. i was so close with her
3. its taken me this long to actually feel anything.

I'm currently in year 12 and everything's becoming more and more stressful. I can't talk to my parents or siblings about my nan because it hurts them as much as it hurts me. Is it normal to think "am I doing the right thing?" I've gone to a psychologist but she couldn't help me.

[Lonelydan]

Hi Scott, it's ok to grieve the loss of your grandmother especially if you Had a close bond. There's no rules no time limit for you to get over this. The pressure of school has made you realise how much you wish she was still here. I'm so sorry for your loss. Dan...

[Scotty1256]

Thank you Dan, I just think about her a lot and i honestly really just want to move on with my life, as selfish as that sounds.

[geoff]

hello Scotty, losing your Nan as your figure head and concrete supporter is never easy for you to cope with, and for that I'm really sorry.
As you were close with her you know what she would be telling you to do, because what ever she said was like liquid gold and you believed every second word she said, never doubted her, never questioned her, but asked her questions about anything you were worried about, and she always appeased your mind.
She may not be there with you, but she will always be by your side wherever you go, isn't that better than only seeing her when you could, hold onto these memories and go and talk with her where she has been buried, this maybe sad where you cry, don't hold back the tears, show her you still love her and really miss her. Geoff.