Hi Whyme - sorry to hear of your experience, this sounds traumatic. You could consider making an appointment with a gp to see if medication would be suitable to help you through this difficult time. I have had medication for sleep and to reduce adrenaline spikes before. You could also get a gp mental health plan than allows you to see a psychologist at a reduced cost. I suggest you see a trauma psychologist to help you cope. You could call a crisis line like Lifeline if you are overwhelmed.
Another thing to consider is to get legal advice from a family lawyer as to where you would stand if you decide to break up. They can also advise on things to do while separated eg. on whether it is best to stay in the home, what to do with joint accounts etc.
Down the track, when things are not so raw, you could do relationship counseling (even if it is just to establish a workable relationship post separation).
Things will become more manageable over time with the right support.
