Newbie ... Glad to know Im not alone

[Aimee_S]

Hi everyone,

It is nice to have somewhere to express how you are feeling without the thought of criticism and judgement, and to know I am not alone in this battle with depression. I am currently dealing with a bout of depression. I am feeling very lost and alone. I lost my soul mate my baby sister (23) just recently she also suffered with depression and battled and Eating disorder. Together we could do anything, alone I feel so lost and Isolated. It is very hard to find people who understand and don't judge.

We lost many so called 'friends' over the years, people just don't know how to deal with you, so they leave... That's why we relied on each other so much.

I miss my sister so much.... I went to get her up for breakfast like any other morning and found she had died throughout the night... My room is straight opposite hers. Her cause of death is still undetermined due to coronal inquest... although I truly believe it was not suicide.... she seemed in a happy place, we where planning things together.

I just need to tell our story, each day is a struggle at the moment. I am seeing a psychologist, but it is yet to do much help. I am not giving up though, my sister never did and constantly battled her illness. She was an inspirational person, not that she thought this.

Everyday is one day at a time, just glad I have found somewhere else I can talk about my thoughts.

Thanks for listening guys!x

[Neil_1]

Hi Aimee  

I write this with the saddest face … you miss your sister … oh Aimee, of course you miss her. 

 I am so sorry to hear of your loss – it really has ripped through me reading your post and don’t ever apologise for this either.  It must be just sheer hell for you right now – as it seems like it wasn’t overly long ago that this happened.  

 Each day will be a struggle Aimee … absolutely. 

It is brilliant that you’ve been able to reach out here and to share your story.  It’s funny isn’t it … that the people you know to be inspirational would just say, “no way, I’m not that – you’re confusing me with someone else”. 

But I can tell through your words how much you looked up to her … 😞    sad smiley there, cause I’ve got tears in my eyes.  

At this stage Aimee, it’s only taking one step, one tiny step at a time.  You won’t be capable of anything bigger than that.   

 Do you have other family members or friends who you can lean on for support at this time?  It is good that there’s been a psych arranged for you … but as you say, it’s possibly not doing too much for you at this point in time, as the wound that you’ve got is so raw and everything hurts.  

I won’t overload you with a big post on this occasion … but I would really like to hear back from you again, if you feel ok to do so … just to let us know how you’re travelling?  

I know you won’t want to do things like this at the moment, but Aimee, you’ve got to please look after yourself.  Grief can affect so many people in so many different ways … and there is no right or wrong way for dealing with this.  You just have to do things at this present time that you feel are right.  

 I know when I lost my Dad, six years ago, I was kind of pushed at two different times before his funeral into not doing a couple of things that I really wanted too and I regret that and will do so most probably for the rest of my life.  I can let you know what these were if you like, but I’d rather just have this post totally dedicated to you and your beautiful sister.  I just gave the above little piece about me and my Dad, just to make a point that if there is something that you feel you should do, be strong and as long as you feel as though you can do it, then Aimee, do it.  I hope I made sense there.  

 Please please take good care of yourself  

Neil

[Jo3]

Hi Aimee

I feel so sorry for you - you are missing your sister terribly.  I wish I could just give you a big hug. So I'm sending you one via this post. I

Losing a family member is a very traumatic experience.  Sounds like you were very close to your sister.

But I'm glad that you have found us on here to talk to.  Aimee take one day at a time, slowly slowly you will be okay.  You have us here to help you.

I agree with what Neil has written above.  Just take your time, grieving is so different for everyone.

Pls take care and hope we can chat again whenever you feel up to it

Jo xx

[helpmeplease]

Hi Aimee,

First of all welcome to this wonderful site. I know you are going through a extremely hard time right now with the loss of your sister. Loosing a sibling is always one of the worst losses any of us can have. especially when you were as close as you and your sister obviously were. It will take a long time for the pain to ease but we are all here for you. Sending you big hugs in your time of need.

HMP xx

[Aimee_S]

Thanks everyone for your loving support and hugs... much appreciated. Today is one of my better days, and I am trying very hard, it is defiantly one day at a time. It's good to be able to talk to people who have an idea of what It is like living with depression. I know that my sister will never come back, I've just got to find a away to live and keep her memory alive.

I started to study nursing just before my sister passed, and this is the one thing she wanted me to finish, and I will .  Thanks again everyone 🙂

[Neil_1]

Hi Aimee

I'm so pleased you came back and posted again.

I know you'll make her memory live on and she'll be always in your thoughts.

Just remember to, that should you ever need to vent or air anything that is concerning you, we'll be here for you.

Please take care of yourself Aimee

Neil

[geoff]

dear Aimee, there are so many posts that I don't answer to only because of my time factor, but my goodness I wish that I had read this one 4 days ago.

The loss of your sister is a terribly sad event, and I only hope that I can extend my arm out to you along with the others and let you pray to her, along with all our sorrow, so that you can tell us what she was like and the closeness you both had together.

Only us know the devastation of all the people we know that decide to pack up and leave us with no support what's so ever, nor can we understand why they have no heart to know that it's a time like this that we do need their help and comfort.

I truly hope that you can stay here with us, because it's a long road ahead for you, and you will want someone to talk to, we are here to comfort and understand this sorrow you have. L Geoff. x