Hello CaroW
I can feel your pain in your post and know that today, but not unlike any other day really, is so painful for you. Mother's day is especially hard as you miss all the things that your beautiful daughter would have done for you to let you know she loved and appreciated you.
As I said to my step mother today, these are the times that you do remember how much your were loved by your daughter, the way she would have made you feel today, the gifts and this goes a great way to also knowing that she knew she was loved by you too. As you sit with the things you will deeply miss, these things too also show us the love coming back, that she knew how much she meant to you, that she adored and cared for you so much. That on this day it is like a mirror of all the love you gave her coming right back at you.
Sometimes it is times like today that almost act as a reminder of being kind to us, the ones that are left behind. That in your case your daughter and in mine my brother, that they knew that they were loved by us and meant the world to us, that this was not our fault and that given the chance we would have done anything on the day to change the outcome, we were not given that choice.
The fact you have so many beautiful things from her shows how much of a wonderful mother you were to her, she will live forever in your heart and in the fond fond memories you have.
Today was hard and my heartfelt hugs to you, I hope you can do something to have some joy and a smile today, she would want that for you I am sure.
Hugs
Sarah
