Hello A_lost_soul - welcome to the forums. I'm glad you have found your way here.
I'm very sorry for the loss of the person you had a regular & supportive relationship with, over such a long time. That loss in your life is very painful, I'm sure. Where to from here is a very important question for you. Having someone to talk about the way forward, I am also sure would help. I would suggest calling BB's own counselling service on:
1300 224 636
Or there is a webchat here too, (the link is at the bottom of this page).
May I ask if the person you've lost was your therapist? That's what I'm thinking, but forgive me if I'm wrong. If so, finding another therapist will be difficult, given your past with them. Do you have a GP you would trust to talk to & see if they can help you find someone to help you with all the difficulties you face in your life.
One thing I realise is how strong we are when we have such difficulties to cope with. I wonder how people do it, sometimes, then I see people like you do, & am sure it comes down to a deep inner strength which defies these assaults upon us & helps us to survive. I think it's a kind of stubbornness, but no matter what I call it, I am still here, as are you. Everyone on BB is here too, & together, we are all stronger
Would you take a little time today, just to appreciate that your own words will be read & be helpful to someone else... I mean, if your situation is what think,I may face that day too, when my own Psychiatrist is gone. I can't really prepare myself for that possibility, ecept to work with him as long as I can, building up my own personal resources & taking everything I've learned from him & others in my life, to see me through the grief.
The first Psychiatrist I saw many years ago, moved interstate, & it was a shock to me how much I realised I'd come to depend on him, how much I missed him, the regular weekly sessions with him, so much, it was a form of grief that I went through. I was with him for two and a half years. So if I lose my current PDr, who has been so good for me, I feel sure I will go through another grief, likely worse than any before. I know now, thee tings are survivable; I'm stronger now, I cope better than ever before. It's not going to be the end of the world.
Hugzies
mmMekitty
