Hi. Ive come on here as my back story is I lost my soul mate , the love of my life in a work place truck accident March2018 on his birthday , 8 months prior my bff girlfriend of 35 years passed away and Feb 10th this year my mum passed away . The three closest people to me who loved me unconditionally . I have 3 daughters but the relationship is not like that of with my mum. . They think support is inviting to a grand child's soccer game . . I lost my fathers at 9 years old, identical to Daniel trucks and logs . Daniels death is still going with lawyers , Work safe etc . I am going to lawyer today to sign to be administrator of Mums will. For over 30 years my brother was Executor, he's a multi millionaire so when Mum passed he would’ve just brought his people in and had them clean her unit out etc . Nope 3 weeks before she passed he threw the paper work at me and washed his hands . I was the last person to be dealing with this . It just gets worse . So Im going to cut to now . I thought there had to be a group of some sort as when you live on own your beyond isolated . I do take meds for depression and anxiety , its genetic so with the death and trauma , it was a no brainer . Everyone in family on medication . As that first loss at 9 years didn't stop there . The death has gone on till Mum this years . Im 55 years . Prior to Daniel I had run a successful Family Day Care business for 17 years . My Service had been accredited by the National Quality Framework Exceeding . I re opened my Service 22 months after Daniel passed . Mum passed 3 weeks into reopening but I was pretty good, kept it running with experienced help, my daughter . I am so unmotivated , its stepped up since Covid I know I am hard on myself and feel you have to be actively doing something or be productive in someway otherwise its wrong . For me-that is. I was diagnosed with Adult Adhd at 48 year. My Support group now who I am truly grateful for are all paid people but without them not being on my level or not understanding me , I don't know how I would've kept going .... Tears. I feel I have cried almost everyday at same stage during day for 2 years . Thank you ...Maree
