Why me? The penultimate question

[Indra]

I am on this merry-go-round of up and down days, as I am sure a lot can relate with.

Today, is one of the low ones. Start with about 4 hours of very broken sleep caused by all living souls in this house including the four legged furball. Next up, my youngest had an appointment with CAMHS which actually went well, but also re - highlighted that the are definite signs of Aspergers - not a shock but still not the best news either.

I still have a lot of paranoia/anxiety in regards to my fiancée. There are starting to be signs that he us talking to other women, but he denies this. We haven't been intimate in quite awhile and we have only been together just over a year. I get countless excuses for it and he never wants to discuss it. It makes me feel very low. I have said I am trying to deal with my depression as best I can, his response was that everyone has some sort of depression. Apart from some wonderful people on BB, I really don't have anyone I can talk to. 

I guess some days are just darker than others....

[white knight]

Hi again Ingra

Re your fiance's statement "his response was that everyone has some sort of depression." No they dont. Some might be sad or other experience but not depression.

I'd really like to know where he gets his knowledge from about mental illness. This is amusing for me.

Your issues with him however are really in need of a family counselling. Maybe contact 'relationships Australia.'

Having had a defacto relationship with a woman for 10 years that was the "step mother from hell" as described by my daughters, I urge you to sort this out quickly and put your kids first.

Certainly postpone any marriage plans until you are 100% satisfied all is how you want it. Avoidance is better than cure

Tony WK

[Indra]

Hi Tony,

Thank you for your honesty.

Well, I don't have to worry anymore, my partner left me this morning. I think he was ticking the avoidance box.

Feeling numb and low more for my kids sake. Just another brick for the wall.

Indra

[white knight]

Hi Indra

So sorry to hear about your new plight, to take life on alone now.

I want you to be more realistic than ever before. Assuming he doesnt return or you wont let him return, you must face the fact that you are going to have new challenges, new ups and new downs. Things will change but you do have a future....just you might not see clearly this future for a while.

You know there are medical professions that can help you. Start with your doctor to see what he/she can do for you.

There are positives I can see already. You've only been together a year or so.

Take care Tony WK

[Indra]

Thank you Tony - I am very focused on making sure that my boys are ok - that's what keeps me going. I'm not afraid to be alone, but it still does sting. I'm hoping things do get better - I  will be trying.

Indra

[Jacko777]

Hi Indra,

Sorry to hear this mate, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am glad you have something to focus on, your boys.

Jack

[Indra]

Thank you Jack for your support. My boys are my world. Even though it is starting to sink in now, I have to be strong for them.

Thank you for everyone on BB 

Indra