dear MillyMolly, welcome to the BB forum and thanks for posting your comment, which has unduly put you in a difficult situation.
There are a few issues which you have to face and non of them are easy to overcome, firstly you are suffering from depression, financial woes, hate your job and not being able to have any children, and all of these combined make it a real struggle for you.
On top of all of these your husband is also trying to cope with his own depression, and this added onto yours makes it an awful position, because I presume that your husband will display his own issues with you, but you are in no way able to help him, because you can't do it for yourself, but don't get me wrong, it would be a tense household which neither of you can help.
Now you have to make a decision which is not going to be an easy one, but it's in regards to your job, and because you hate the job, it would be tempting to through it in, but this is only going to make it even harder to get another one, but you may have no desire what so ever to even consider doing this, not unless you can gain some strength to apply for another one while you're still working.
What you and your husband need to do is go and see your doctor, and discuss what you have explained to us, he/she may give you a few weeks off, and that's good and bad in these ways; good to have a rest, but not so good because I don't think that you would have any inclination to apply for other jobs, and that's quite understandable, because you have depression.
I don't know if work has also contributed to how you feel, but you can let us know, but as it's your post, then I would ask the doctor for the medical plan, which entitles you to 10 free psych visits.
You have so many issues that you can't cope with by yourself, and certainly can't overcome by yourself, so this is why you need to see your doctor.
I really hope that you can get back to us, because it's a concerning post. L Geoff. x
