Why Depression a taboo!

[Valar_Morghulis]

Hi everyone,

It's been months that I'm going through depression and anxiety. It first happened to me few years back.
Somehow fought it and came out of it slowly. But it came back with more power.
Every time when I go through this phase I isolate from everything that I love, isolate me from friends.
Because its the experiences I had made me like this. So the inner me doesn't wanna face that again.
For me, the hardest part of depression is accepting that I'm going through depression and I can't work or act like normal days.
Because I grew up in a world where the word 'depression' 'anxiety' is something people doesn't want to talk about.
Sometimes I accept I'm having depression and I will get out of this one day and be more strong. And not everyone is lucky enough to go through this. One positive thing I could get from this phase I can totally relate to what another person facing depression is going through.

Here I am trying the find one single positive thing desperately and people around me laughing at me.
I know its hard to understand what I'm going through. But can you at least stop judging something you don't know?
When I took the courage to accept my mental state, I have people around me calling me liar and someone who is seeking attention.
I shut down myself from everything and I was isolating myself from everything and what I got is 'LIAR'.

And I'm starting to doubting myself whether I made all this up. No, I didn't. I do have some traumatic events in my life. Maybe it's silly for others, But I couldn't take it. Because I always wished a simple world where I can feel secure, I can be myself. No there is no such world!

I'm hoping for a world where Depression is not a taboo. And someone won't laugh at me when I tell them I'm going through depression!

I have been seeing nightmares. But these days the biggest nightmare is the friend who laughed at me when I said him I'm having depression and people calling me a liar.

Can someone give me a break? I'm not able to solve my real problem in the midst of these!!

Best

Black Sheep

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TonyWK

[Valar_Morghulis]

Hi,

I'm really having bad days these days!

When I don't wanna give up thought becomes toxic!

Why is it hard to leave a place or situation even though I know it's hurting me each day!

I always said to myself I don't wanna give up easily and kept on getting hurt and said "Yay! at least I didn't give up!!".
And trying to justify the situation and people so bad even though I know it's not worth it!
Maybe I do care or something else. End of the day its just me who gets hurt!

Best
Black sheep

[Valar_Morghulis]

@small wolf , @white knight
Hope you are doing well!
I just wanted to say your response did mean a lot to me those days.
Thanks for your time and much relevant responses.

[Gonetroppo]

Sometimes the best thing you can do is to get through today. And when you wake up the next morning, you focus on getting through today. And you'll get up the next morning and you focus on getting through today. You keep doing that and eventually you'll get through 365 days. One year. Keep trying.