Hello maggie1,
Thank you so much for sharing your story with our community, that must have taken a lot of courage. I wanted to stop by and let you know that what you are feeling is so, so common! I've felt this way myself at times too and it can be very overwhelming, can't it?
Exploring a therapist and an ADHD diagnosis sounds like a wonderful way to identify what is going on for you, but I know it can be expensive... can you start with a psychologist referral? There is an easy, affordable online therapy platform called Someone Health that you could start with for the time being? In fact, can you quickly follow the link and do it now? I'll wait here!
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Someone.health | Bulk Billed Telehealth Psychology
...Did you do it? (It's okay if you didn't, but maybe when you do, you can give yourself a little reward for getting the hard thing done!)
Prioritising things is much easier said than done, and finding momentum is also very tricky when we are finding ourselves in cycle of indecision and disengagement. This is where one very small promise to yourself a day can really help. This reminds your mind and body what it is capable of and allows you to build trust in yourself again (which also helps with connecting to yourself and your desires).
Can you start with one small thing today? It can be as simple as "I am going to stand in the sun for 1 minute and focus on my breath" or "I am going to sing along to my favourite song and take notice of how I feel." These tasks might not seem like much, but they can positively impact your mood and thought processes over time. Each act is an act of self-love, especially when approached with curiosity over criticism.
Let us know if you have any questions about this. We would love to hear what you do and how it made you feel!
You're doing your best, remember that. So, keep going, on step at a time.
Warm regards,
Sophie M.
