What are the reasons i should live?

[Aishwarya]

im an indian girl living in australia , majority of the time i feel like my life would have been better at india , here i feel so alone as my parents district me from anything and everything. i can't even stay home alone for more than 10 mins , my parents go through everything i own , so I'm limited to keeping a diary or anything , i have no social life and am not aloud to do basically anything i want to do. i constantly feel low and just wanna end everything completely.i just feel so heavy each morning to wake up another day and live, i can't really be bothered anymore with anything anymore. i feel useless and stupid. i see no good future ahead and it would be better for me and the people around me if i ended things now wouldn't it?

[beyondblue_Online_Communi]

Hi there Ashiwarya, It sounds really tough for you at the moment. You sound like you are really doing it tough on your own. We are really glad though that you have reached out for some support. Some of the symptoms that you describe sound like you may be experiencing depression. Suicidal thoughts are one of the symptoms of depression. The good news is though with the right treatment and support depressive symptoms can resolve themselves and this also means that the suicidal thoughts can go away. Can you speak with your family about how you are feeling? Do you had someone other than family that you can speak with a close family friend perhaps who could then help you to speak with your parents? You can also go to your GP to get some support, they can do a mental health assessment and refer you to a counsellor. Your school will also have counsellors that they can link you in with. Please let us know when you have linked in with supports.

[geoff]

dear Aishwarya, you must still be an adolescent, and please correct me if I am wrong.

If this is the case then your parents are being very protective of you, but there's a point where they just have to butt out a bit and leave you to your own devises.

All young children growing up have their own little secrets, well don't we all, but there are moments that you may want to connect with other friends, and this means both girlfriends as well as crushes on certain boys, this is only part of growing up, but if your parents restrict this from happening, then this only makes you annoyed.

It can make you become rebellious, and I'm not saying that you are by any means, but if you do have a boyfriend and want to talk to him, and your parents say no you can't, then a lot of hostility and then depression can result, so it's a catch 22 situation.

Your parents come from an outside country so they are worried for you, but there's a point where there has to be an equilibrium, because eventually you will be old enough to move out of the house, and that maybe sooner rather than later.

They have to understand that what we do here is different to what is being done in their home town, so this means that you are allowed some fortitude, and that you do go to school and can then communicate with your peers.

So really it's a two way agreement that has to be set up, and to allow you some freedom, because at some stage they won't have control over you. Geoff. x