So this is my first time on an online forum so bare with me.
I am currently in recovery of a 2 1/2 year period of depression and anxiety which in the last year induced psychosis. I am finally starting to feel better and more confident with the things that I do and am about to start a college course (I'm 17) and am trying to get a job and all that jazz, but I have this constant feeling of walking on eggshells. I'm absolutely terrified of relapsing, after stressful days I still have that craving to self-harm and on really bad days it is becoming very difficult to resist.
I am really hesitant to tell my mum because I don't want to cause anymore damage to my family (this year with the psychosis has been really damaging to my relationship with my family and friends). I would talk to her about returning to therapy but I have really big trust issues with the facility I was getting treatment at after they misdiagnosed my condition for over a year.
So my real question is does anyone have any tips or ideas on how to stop this eggshell feeling, as well as ideas on keeping the self-harm thoughts at bay? I've tried music and distractions but lately there not working as well.
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