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[REC500]

This is my first post but after reading some of the posts I can see I'm not alone here.  I was diagnosed with PTSD and depression around 2015 and have managed to keep things together until about 12 months ago due to the nature of my work combined with a toxic work environment.  I reduced my working week to 7 days per fortnight and am on medication however it still became overwhelming and I took leave without pay.  I have not worked since October 2023 and am living off my savings. More often now I don't do activities and hobbies I used to enjoy and most things are a struggle and seem pointless. Low moods and lethargy are present most days.  Some days getting out of bed seems pointless.  It can also be tiring pretending everything is okay when it is not. I tell myself suicide would kill my elderly parents and devastate my grandchildren but that is starting to wear thin. I care about things less and less and feel immune to any emotional situations where I know I should care, or be angry or happy or concerned but I don't.  Thats all.

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear REC500,

A very warm and caring welcome to our forums…

I also have PTSD, depression, anxiety +a couple more…I am so sorry your struggling with work, low moods and depression…I have found for me that when I wasn’t working depression and anxiety really sunk it’s claws into me, so much that I didn’t go out of my home for months and not getting out of bed for days was becoming my normal routine…an unhealthy routine that I knew existed,  but to depressed to care about myself…This went on for months/years…(not sure how long)….but I did end up in hospital, which was horrible but at the same time very helpful, one of the things we learnt was that a daily routine is  very important for our mental health…

I was offered a volunteer job, 3 days a week, that gets me out of bed, showered, dressed and into society…the other 4 days I still struggle to find things to do that I enjoy…but I do try hard to get out of bed, clean my house a little, look after my fur girls and care for myself the best I can…What I’m trying to say, is that having a daily routine is very important for our mental health…..If you’re up to it please search…”Our daily routine, what is it”..there could be some suggestions in that thread that might help you….

Please take the best care of you always dear REC500, your sweet grandchildren, family and beautiful parents all need you, in their lives…They all love and care for you…so do we..

My kindest thoughts with my care dear REC,  also a little gentle caring hug ( if that’s okay)..

Grandy..

[Alice11]

Hi Rec500,

I think You need to find out what made you unhappy. Try solutions for the problems that bothered you. Talk to family members and friends to get more ideas for solutions. If you cannot find solutions for your problems, try to live with it and accept it. Relax and do more exercises as well and you will get better. I watched a story that someone is old and in poverty and is living a very long life of 99 years. So nothing should bother us much.