Dear all,
This morning I woke up and was having my breakfast and I thought “I kind of feel happy right now”. And my mind hated it and the reaction was to immediately started sliding back into feeling bad again.
I wasn’t feeling euphoric or positive happy,I felt just normal. For about 20 minutes.
I have been through alot in the last couple of months and depression has taken me into dark places and the majority of my days are depressed and wanting to sleep or cry.
Why did I do that to myself? I deserve to feel even just a bit normal.
Am I now so used to feel this way,that feeling normal is uncomfortable to be in. Or is it guilt ,blame or regret of some sort.
Can anyone help?
ABC01
