One moment i am a happy, sociable and loving life, the next i am withdrawn, depressed and hating it. It was all so gradual, starting with my anxiety getting worse and worse and then eventually spiraling into a deep dark depression. Sometimes i feel like i should just give up - there is no quality in my life, i have no self confidence and i just feel like life is pointless. I think my guilt on how doing such a thing would impact my family... and i think that is the only reason why i don't. I want to be myself again, i actually don't seem to remember what my life was like before i got a mental illness, all i remember now is how each day is the same - the intense fear to leave the house, the lack of self worth, my lack of motivation - all things that 2 years ago would never describe me. I am seeing a psychiatrist and doing CBT for my anxiety but i just feel as though now that my anxiety and depression has completely and utterly consumed me. I don't know what to do. If someone has any words of wisdom or help for me i would greatly appreciate it, Thank you.
