Sorting Out My Life Before I End It

[Daria_M]

I feel like my depression is winning completely at the moment. I can't stop thinking about ending it all, i don't want to, last thing I really want to do but I just don't see a way out anymore. Life is too hard, relationship is too messy and I can't fix anything. My family has come to stay for a few days, I'm scared after they leave that that will be it.

In my head I'm sorting out who I would leave money to, and who will be responsible for dealing with my leftovers after I go. That scares me, I've never made plans before. A psychologist told me my vitamin d might be low, pfft yeah something is low, that's me.

[white knight]

Hi Daria

Life on the surface can seem so mundane and life’s issues we endure can seem there is no answer.

Ive been there, in that “hole”. It’s a lace that drowns reality and suppresses awareness of opportunities. No opportunities- create them.

Sounds easy but it isn’t and I do understand. But your options are for change, to do whatever it takes to simply- survive.

My new journey commenced with the following video-

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TonyWK