So lost and lonely

Gypsy77 · ‎27-01-2016

Hi I am so lost and lonely very depressed don't even know where to start

I have no friends I do nothing but wake up and sit on lounge crying try to watch tv but mind does not let me half the time

i feel so miserable worthless I live with my ex partner due to can't live alone and have no where else to go don't get me wrong they are great and I am very lucky to have them to help me as I don't know where ll be without them. The thing is when they leave for work I am crying as I don't wanna be left alone so scared and end up crying most of day as I am right now. I have been sick had a operation which is giving me pain and high lated the anxiety which does not help. I do see a dr but honestly not much has been done to help me. I did try some tablets but they made me sick as most things do. Which is why I am so scared about taking anything. I get so angers at myself for feeling like this. I was once a strong person who could do anything go anywhere now I can't even go outside my gate. The only time I leave the house is to go dr which makes me so uptight and very nervous. I don't drive so I have to ask my ex partner to take me to drs I know it drives them crazy but I don't have any other her help. I just don't no what to do anymore I am at rock bottom and need some help !!

Durras · ‎27-01-2016

Hi Gypsy77,

I want to welcome you to our family here at BB> I personally call it family cause I have no family here and everyone on BB are so beautiful caring and supportive I feel like they have become my family who I can turn to and I have only been on here for a short period of time.

Unfortunately for me helping you and giving advise I am myself in a bad way today with a very down day so I don't really know what to say. I have been all alone with no one to turn to, didn't want to leave the house and scared. I understand this must be all so difficult for you but I also know there are many on this site who can give you so really helpful direction so please hang in there.

What I also know is we also acknowledge here that we are all very wonderful and beautiful people as I am sure and positive you are too. We are all struggling, we all have similar and some different things going on in our lives but at the end of the day we are all here searching for meaning and answers and here on BB has helped me amazingly (thou like today we still have our down days) even just to know your not alone is a great feeling so again I ask you hang in there as many on here will be able to give you lots of wonderful support.

Again sorry I can't help at the moment but I want to welcome you here to BB and please keep in touch.

Durras

Gypsy77 · ‎27-01-2016

Hi duras

thank you for your reply I hope your day gets better. It's nice to hear from someone

don't know what else to say sorry

Bodey294 · ‎27-01-2016

Hello Gypsy, first of all i am proud of you for speaking up and welcome you to the community. the feelings you have described are not uncommon and you should not feel ashamed for having them. I personally have experienced anxiety and depression in the recent past and can relate to some of feelings you are suffering from now. The good thing is that this is not permanent and can be fixed. the first step is important and that is to recognise where these sad feeling are coming from for example when i felt trapped or sluggish or cynical or internally conflicted i noticed that i would never leave my room (which is a very small space). So to counteract this closed off feeling i went for a walk outside in the park which made me feel open and less conflicted with myself then i walked back to my room with a different mindset... a positive mindset. i also try mindfulness which is a technique designed to get you back to the here and now using all of your five senses... i recommend downloading the mindfulness app from the app store. I used to be obsessed with TV and movies and video games as a distraction to avoid my real problems.... its sort of like procrastination when dealing with homework or chores. I would stay up late (sometimes still do) watching movies or video games or surfing the net and as a result my sleep turned inside out and reversed.... sleep is a huge factor (at least for me) that impacts so much on the way we feel and in turn the way we think so getting the right amount of sleep is essential. some sleeping techniques are slow deep breathing or Progressive Muscle Relaxation (PMR... look it up! it could work for you). Durras, we all have our ups and downs and our feelings are not linear and feeling down is apart of life but its how we choose to deal with it. Please check out the resources i have recommended to you as they really do help. Im always here for you guys and happy to respond back to you if you have any questions or queries or expressions.

Thanks

bodey294

Gypsy77 · ‎28-01-2016

Thank you Bodey294

geoff · ‎29-01-2016

dear Gypsy, agoraphobia can well and truly happen when they have some sort of depression, and the longer it goes on without
getting ny help the worse it becomes.
First of all it starts by feeling anxious about having a panic attack which then leads onto actually having one, if that makes
sense, so it's something that needs to be treated, otherwise as each day comes the more you will be inclined to stay at
home, but by seeing your doctor and leaving the house is a step forward, because there are many people who can't even do this.
There is a technique which can help people overcome this fear or any other phobia and that's by using 'desensitisation theory'
so if you google this it can show you how to gradually overcome this fear.
Remember this has been caused by a couple of issues you are trying to cope with at the moment, as one develops another one
happens so have a look at what I have said to google, plus I would like you to google 'agoraphobia', because the more you understand
what you are trying to cope with, the better off you will be.
Please let us know. Geoff. x