So confused don’t know how to keep self on track

[Guppy123]

Hi.. first post that hopefully passes the rules!! Need some staying on track over ‘festive’ season where judt feel like a loser (who can’t type!!!).

bipolar 2, recently been hospital for overdose and had ect, precious/ continue eating disorders: issues .

been trying to stay off the piss bit keep drinking when happy or sad. Feel like loser and keep doing it - 2 kids 9 and 11 and struggle to read to them when on the piss. Bring such bad example but otherwise good to them.

failing self, kids and hubby what s fool I am

dont know how to stop would think being hospitalised would fix but have realised have so few real friends, hard to feel that any one I see gives a damn. Of all people I know only 3 people made contact her I was in the nut house. No one from my full time work - been there 7 years, they send flowers to everyone else who is crook,! Find it hard to work out what is wrong with me.

[quirkywords]

Guppy,

I am so glad you wrote your first place and are no part of this forum. This is a kind , safe place that is full of caring, supportive, friendly people who understand.

You are not a loser, I don't like that word. I see a strong person who has expressed herself in a well written post and has reached out to strangers. You are a caring mother, you hold down a fulltime job and you are trying to cope with having been in hospital. To me all that means a determined person who is coping with many health issues.

We care here and you are not alone.

Don't worry about the typos, I think I make the most typos here!!

I was diagnosed with bipolar over 40 years ago, and I need every day to work at staying well. Some people will never understand what we go through but is has changed

It be difficult but we need to be resilient. I can see you are a great mum as you are open about your weaknesses.

Do you think you want to cut back or cut out drinking?

Did something happen recently to make you go off track or has this been happening for a while.?

How do you feel your mental health team is helping you?

There is a thread called This bipolar life , that is a friendly support place that you may like to visit.

I am sorry you weren't sent flowers, sometimes people feel awkward and don't know what to do.

You can post here as much as you like.

Quirky