So close to giving up

[Ravk]

Hi, for about 5-6 years I've been suffering from anxiety and depression (which has been caused by several events during my life), and have recently started seeing a counsellor about it. However I dont receive constant or immediate assistance. Over the last few weeks I feel like I haven't been normal and haven't been doing things I used to. I recently came back from Europe from a study tour and since then I haven't been the same. During the study tour I went through some periods where I felt like I was being bullied, I had some people who studied with me that had called me names and basically cornered me. Also recently, I was once again rejected by a 'close friend' who I have had on and off feelings for since he claims to never feel the same (there's more to that story). But overall I have been going through 'lapses' of depression (like even 2-3 in a day) and I end up spending the entire day in bed with no motivation to do anything. Everyday I feel more lonelier and lonelier, and it's coming to the point where I dont really feel like I have anyone to talk to. So that's why I made the initiative to post here. I just need some support and advice to help myself out of this mess. Thanks a lot.

[Doolhof]

Hi Ravk,

Welcome to the community here on the forum. I hope you find acceptance, validation and recognition here. It does sound like you have been suffering lately.

It is difficult when we can't get on to see someone for help and support straight away. Hopefully you will feel connected here and will be able to express yourself further if that helps you.

Depression and anxiety can make us feel like we just want to stay in bed forever. The thing is, if you can find motivation and determination to do something other than stay in bed, then you will feel better in the long run.

I know it isn't easy! I've been struggling quite a bit myself lately. My psychologist told me to try and push myself to do things even when I didn't feel like it as ultimately I would feel better for having done it.

Sorry to read that you were bullied and called names. That is just not on. I don't know why people need to boost themselves up by picking on others. To me it just makes them cowards and not worth knowing.

I find making a list of things I want to achieve in a day helps me. If I don't get everything done, that is okay too! I think of them as suggestions. If I achieve something that is excellent and I can congratulate myself. Making an attempt to do something is better than not doing anything!

Hope you find ways to deal with your depression and anxiety! Once again, welcome!

Cheers from Dools

[Ravk]

Thank you so much Dools, i really appreciate your effort to reach out to me.

I have decided to try antidepressants that will be prescribed to me soon. My psychologist has recommended me to start taking the initiative to get out of bed as soon as depression hits, and this may include doing smaller activities that i enjoy such as listening to music, moving around the room cleaning, or stepping outside into the backyard.

I will be trying this activities and will get back to you.

Thank you once again for welcoming me and reaching out to me!

Ravk

[Doolhof]

Hi Ravk,

You are more than welcome! Getting up and doing something does help! If it is a nice day, have one of your meals out in the back yard. Do you have a chair out there you can sit on? I like to listen to the birds while I am outside.

Listening to music is a good idea, different music can evoke all sorts of emotions.

Breaking things down into smaller activities certainly can be beneficial. When you find you can manage to do one thing it is than easier to move on to something else.

If an activity seems overwhelming you are less likely to start it let alone finish it.

All the best with trying the medication. Hope it goes well for you.

One thing I have learnt is that there is so much we can do for ourselves to help if we have plans and strategies in place.

All the best to you, from Dools.