Severe depression and fuzzy head

[Kimbo_72]

Hi there. I've suffered from depression for many years now. But iv'e just gone through a major low. 3 weeks and counting. I am a worrier and have always challenged myself whether it be work, kids or home life.

I went home from work early one day as i wasn't quite able to concentrate......it then spiraled down hill from there. I went to Doc straight away and said something doesn't feel right in my head? I was on medication and he decided to increase the dose. OMG! The next 2 weeks i was literally a vegetable. I couldn't talk to anyone, i couldn't go to work, (but forced myself to on a few occasions but cant remember.

I couldn't function..... The worst feeling in the world!

I gave the tablets 2 weeks and had to stop taking them. I'm slowly weening myself off medication all together, but i am still not functioning normally.

My head is still fuzzy. Its so hard to explain.

Its not thoughts its an actual feeling in my head.

My frustration is i am a single Mum with 2 teenage kids who have no idea whats going on, and work full time as a Team leader, factory and production manager. I also run a digital press and over see 2 other staff! I have 2 dogs a cat and a household to run!

I feel like an absolute idiot...... People are talking to me but i can't process what it's about.

I'm booked in to see a Phycologist, but feel its way too late already. I'm lost and don't know what to do anymore.

What do other people feel? I feel i don't have anyone to turn to for instant help.

Kim

[white knight]

Hi Kim, welcome

We are a community of people with mental illness issues or carers. We can't diagnose and a correct diagnosis is vital in your situation.

There could be one if so many problems it would be highly inappropriate to guess.

You could seek a second opinion.

I appreciate your busy life but at timed there are other priorities

Tony WK

[Lost_Girl]

Hi Kim,

You should go back to your GP to discuss this. It is not advisable to make changes to medication without medical direction or supervision.

I had issues with processing information and concentration when changing medication. It needs to be managed properly.

If time is an issue consider seeing a GP at a medical centre with extended hours.

Kind thoughts,

Carol

[Kimbo_72]

Thanks Carol.

I've suffered from depression for 25 years now. And in all honesty this last bout, and its still around, has scared me. I have been to the Doctors 3 times in the last 3 weeks and have expressed major concerns of how the tablets made me feel....all they say is persist for a little longer.

I just couldnt do that anymore. I wasnt sleeping at night and my whole day to day things were compromised.

I still cant think straight, i dont want to get out of bed, but do and i look like shit!!!!

I understand what your saying, but i have been on this medication for 2 years and they didnt help. I need help immediatley and its not possible ........... without a major interruption to your life.

I need to work, i cant palm my kids off to someone else, i cant ignore life.

Unfortunately its all i want to do....

Kim

[Lost_Girl]

Hi Kim,

I understand. I would suggest telling your GP that you are stopping the medication and want their assistance in doing it safely and ask them for an alternative one.

If you don't think the current one will listen, go to a new GP. Trying to manage your medication yourself or your illness with no help while you wait for your psych will possibly have a worse impact on you, your family and work. You are already noticing this (we can't have you looking like shit can we? Hugs xx)

I have had insomnia too from meds before and I have 3 kids and no family help so I really know where you are coming from. You're right, you can't wait but you also can't do it alone.... you wouldn't leave a broken arm without a cast right?

Persist in what you need from your GP.

I wish I could do more for you.

Kind thoughts,

Carol

[Kimbo_72]

Thanks Carol.

I know i may sound like a whinger...LOL but i'm desparate for this to be resolved.

I can hardly remember the last 3 weeks of my life.

You are a lovely person with good advice

Kim

[Lost_Girl]

Haha, whinging I can help with, vent away 🙂

Let me know how you go xx