I’m 16, have been depressed and very anxiety-ridden for 4 years, and I feel like I’m going to reach a breaking point. Not to the point of hurting someone else, but to the point of severely hurting myself. I can’t hold conversations with anyone anymore, I’m so self conscious and I’m ultimately a really sad person. I’ve isolated myself from my friends, I’ve gained quite a prevalent stutter, teachers don’t talk to me anymore because I look so miserable all the time, and it’s even getting to a point where I can’t talk to my little brother because we’ve kind of grown apart for a few years, my older brother doesnt talk to me because we had an argument a while ago and he’s too scared to reconcile, my dad has another family to look after now, and I have no interest in doing anything to better myself. I realise that this is all just me wallowing in my self-pity, but I don’t know what to do anymore. Therapy costs too much, the stigma that counselling has at my school will just make people think less of me and I doubt any helplines will ever actually be able to help me. I don’t have anyone left. I can’t see myself going on for much longer. I’ve lost all of the joy in my face, and I can’t envision a future where I don’t feel like this. Please don’t feel compelled to reply. I’m just venting, and don’t want to be a burden to anyone.
