Hi, welcome
I can understand your need to keep a good reputation going in your profession especially if its a small world of employee numbers. However, hypothetically, if in the future you were to be interviewed and was asked why the early departure and gave your answer ( Covid times, workplace environment at the time didnt fit well) and it wasnt accepted, would you really want to work under a boss that was so narrow minded?
Any decent employer would accept that people have issues in life that they need to deal with and at times this impacts their ability to work with stability. Also, as I've proved many times when younger, that eventually you just drop off that work experience from your resume simply because its not easy explaining what occurred years ago on a topic that isnt relevant years later.
Re: "...but I feel like I need to put myself first even if it does mean that word will spread that I didn't last a month at this work place." The saying goes "charity begins at home" and it is also well known that in terms of mental health issues- "prevention is better than cure".
What you might be holding onto is guilt, just a little, through obligation of satisfying others. This is also understandable as you want to impress others and maintain a good work ethic, unfortunately not everyone can do that. In fact I often recommend two or three part time jobs rather than one full time job because 38+ hours a week in the same environment, the same people, the same work can stretch us too much. Whereas, part time job introduces changes hourly. That might spring some ideas of trying other professions for a while and return to your prime work later on.
For anyone that says "why leave, you have a good job there" etc they aren't you, they aren't working there... its your uniqueness and unique situation currently that is not tolerable.
I hope I've helped. I'm glad you came here.
TonyWK
