dear Jools, thanks for your reply, and from what you have said 'I think since then I have got worse. I have lost all my confidence in everything I do', that it is possible that PTSD could be playing a huge weight with you, although I'm not a qualified psychologist or doctor and my assumption is just from my experience in having depression myself, so please a doctor would have to agree or disagree.
Kids at the age yours are 14 and 16 well can be a difficult age where they are starting to believe that they can do whatever they want and believing that they are adult age and know exactly what to do, you know their response 'I know what to do', so in some ways they can ignore whatever you tell them to do.
My two sons are now 36 and 34 and have been through this stage.
Again I don't have the capacity to officially diagnose you, it's just two guys talking to each other, but what I can say is that you have been to hell and trying to get back, so I'm not sure whether you would intend on going to see another doctor, who can then diagnose you and is prepared to change medication as well as to direct you to a psychologist who handles cases like yours.
Saying this and if you agree then click onto 'Get Support' at the top of this page where you will be able to find a professional/doctor who handles situations like what you are experiencing, these doctors are aligned to BB and deal with mental illness, and excuse me for saying 'mental illness' because it can turn people off, but what it means is for people who have any type of depression which also includes PTSD.
You seem to be a hard working man, but you're just jumping on the same spot and not getting anywhere nor any help, so please have a think about I have said, and hope that you get back to us. Geoff.
