Not being heard.

[BMayyy]

Hi everyone,

I've struggled with depression and anxiety for a bout 8 years now but I feel like I'm not getting the right help or diagnosis. Don't get me wrong I do believe I have anxiety and depression but I feel like within myself it goes alot deeper than that, I've been put on several different types of medications and nothing has worked for me as of yet.. and when I also say it goes alot deeper I mean rage, I have this anger inside me that never leaves, my moods shift like crazy and it's affected relationships with partners and family members and I just think will I ever get the right help? will I ever be heard?

[smallwolf]

Hi Bmayyy,

Welcome to beyond blue.

I am listening to you. You are not alone in this space. This is a caring and supportive environment.

Sorry that you have not had much luck with the medications. I know there can be a bit of trial and error in finding the right medication.

When you said that you believe you are not getting the right help... From whom were you getting help (can I ask)? Were you getting professional help from a counselor or psychologist? But even writing here can be helpful in that you get somewhere to put the thoughts in your mind somewhere else.

There is plenty of information in the forums that might be of benefit to you, but will leave that to a later post. There is light at the end of the tunnel... It just depends on the length of the tunnel. Please come back and tell more about yourself and hopefully will see you around the forums.

Peace and comfort,

Tim

[baet123]

Hi BMayyy,

Welcome to the forums and as Tim mentioned above, we are listening to you and you are definitely not alone!

It is really great that you have come to these forums and you are expressing your emotions. I can tell you are an extremely brave, strong, resilient and thoughtful person and these are amazing qualities you possess!

You mention that you have been on several types of medication and nothing has worked. Have you seen any therapists in the past? Have you mentioned your anger to your doctors or therapists in the past? It is really important to address and understand the underlying conditions behind your rage and your depression/anxiety, if any.

Anger is often a symptom of depression and even anxiety and often managing the depression may assist your anger and overall mood. Have you discussed this anger with anyone in the past? What has the outcome been? I think it is important for you to discuss your anger with someone and explore possible treatment/intervention options.

No one deserves to live in constant anxiety, depression and anger. There are support services available for you to contact and they would love to hear from you. I would consider phoning your states mental health helpline and they will be able to provide you with information on services available and the like.

There are things you can do to help manage your symptoms:

Find someone to talk to: You may also prefer to talk to people you aren’t close with. There are many support groups available.

Add exercise into your daily routine: It can be difficult to feel motivated to exercise when you’re depressed, but exercise can help improve your mood. That’s because exercise helps your body release endorphins, a hormone that makes you temporarily feel good. Exercise can also improve your sleeping patterns.

Get enough sleep every night: Focus on sleeping seven to eight hours a night. Feeling well-rested can help improve your mood and motivation. If you’re having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep, talk to your doctor.

Hope this helps.

Look forward to hearing back from you shortly. Better days are ahead.

Nick.

[channym]

Hi BMayyy

I often describe feeling depressed as your mind screaming and no one hearing it. It sounds like this is something you might be feeling. It is incredibly frustrating when doctors can't help you the way you need to be helped, especially with something like mental illness that is so hard to explain what your symptoms are or where your head is at, as putting it into words is a puzzle.

As others have said the medication part can be trial and error as can finding the correct therapy, can I ask where you are at in your therapy process and how you feel about the people that you have talked to so far?

[BMayyy]

Thanks for the replies everyone I honestly wasn't really expecting a response but kinda glad I received one. I've had help from counselling, a physcologist and a psychiatrist but at the moment im not currently seeing anyone or on any medication I've just been trying to control it myself for the past year or 2 but I can't. The last person I saw was a physcologist his thoughts on my situation was that he thinks I have some sort of bipolar disorder but in females.

I currently try motivate myself by exercising and doing bootcamp 3 days a week but sometimes im just not in the mood for it and want to be around people.

[smallwolf]

Hi BMayyy,

I know what you mean when you say that you want to be around people, and that sometimes not in the mood fro it as well. I have had those feelings in the past. And when I spoke with my psychologist about these feelings, actually doing the activity is the best thing to do as it can act as a distraction to the thoughts, as your mind becomes focused on the activity being performed.

Secondly, as you are trying to do this by yourself, I won't tell you what you should or should not do about getting help. There are many factors involved in making a decision like that. And given you are not seeing anyone at the moment, I might suggest some ideas you might like to check out:

• https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/staying-well/grounding-yourself-what-is-it-and-how-do-you-/page/2
• https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/staying-well/mindfulness-what-is-it-(even-if-you-dont-know-please-post-so-we-can-help-grow-the-forums-accordingly)
• My psychologist also wanted me to read "The Happiness Trap", which you might be able to get from your local library.
• You could also try the guided meditations (< 4min) in an app called "virtual hope box"

All the best,

Tim

[BMayyy]

Thanks for the advice tim. I'll give those ideas a go.

Cheers.

Brianna