Newbie at the end of my tether

[Smudget]

Hi all, I didn't know what to do this afternoon, I was feeling so awful. So this sounded like a better option than losing my mind. My mh journey restarted 2 years ago when I had my first child, I was diagnosed with pnd and anxiety, meds did wonders and I did counselling. During that time my dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and died last august, my husband lost his full time job and I've had issues with mine (I work in mental health, go figure) Pur savings are gone from me taking time off to care for my dad and I have no leave left either. Hubby has had to take work away from home and I'm left working, caring, grieving and everything else by myself. I am so overwhelmed I feel like I'm about to lose my mind. Even though I work in the industry I literally have no idea what to do due to money restraints and working in a small community where everyone knows each other.... I don't know what good this will do but at the very least I got it off my chest. Thank you.

[MsPurple]

Hi smudget

Welcome to the forums. Thank you for sharing your story and being open to us here. We all like to support each other and offer guidance. On the forums we have lots of users with different backgrounds. My background is that I have GAD, I have recovered from EDNOS, depression, my mother has bipolar and I am 25. Although I may not answer all your concerns on here don't worry because you'll probably get more responses from different users with different backgrounds who will look at the post differently to myself.

I'm sorry for your families loss of the recent year/s. It is never easy to lose your dad. And having financial struggles can make life more stressful than it already is. Is there anyone in your local area you can talk to that you don't work with? Is it possible to see the person who diagnosed you with pnd? You probably already know this but if you get a mental health plan this gives you 6-10 free psych sessions a year which could help with the financial issue surrounding therapy.

I know you think it is ironic to work in mental health you are having mental health issues yourself, this is actually quite common. A lot of people who deal with a problem also want to help others dealing with the same problems. I also know where you are coming from. I work in nutrition and since starting on my anti-depresants I have gained some weight and struggling to lose it (please note I am still a healthy weight, but heavier side, and I have gone to the gym so no weight shift, but maybe more muscle). Now one would think I could change my diet to help me lose weight etc, but as I am unable to to tell myself exactly what to do. It is normal for people to be able to help someone else with something but not ourselves. It's because we can be unobjective with out clients but not ourselves. Does this make sense? I know what I'm trying to say but sometimes my dyslexia muddles the words up in my head.

It is good to come hear and to get things off your chest. If you feel like you need to talk to someone feel free to call Beyond blue on 1300224636, this is a great confidential chat line for someone who just needs someone to talk to in a time of need. You could also go on the online chat at the bottom right of the page if you want to chat to a trained person online as well.

[Fairywings]

hello lovely mumma wow i admire your strength doing this solo so to speak. I get it coz i hold the fort together too have a hubby with chron's a nearly 4 yr old boy with severe autism and i am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and everything that comes with that have been medicated and seeking professional help for the last 20 or so years . I'm so sorry to hear of your losses and that your struggling atm believe me as long as you keep fighting in spirit u r going to get thru this. Life isn't an easy journey it is meant to test us everyday and it does with flying colours. There are alot of people struggling financially atm i dunno what this world is coming to. You can def post here anytime and get it all off your chest we are all here for you every step of the way. I hope this has helped in some way please do keep in touch with us Regards Venessa

[white knight]

Hi and welcome

Yes no wonder you've hit a low point.

Many of us here have suffered burnout and or psychosis and we need to find ways to address this. It becomes our specialty really because the common m a n/woman doesnt sink so low.

So, with no leave left you really need priorities to change. Rest, spiritual well being etc will help with your grief as well. Spend every moment that you are away from work in this rest zone. Family and friends can...frankly...wait!

Google the following

Topic: inexpensive recovery idea, camping- beyondblue

Topic: he helped me for 25 years, maharaji- beyondblue

Youtube Maharaji sunset

Youtube Maharaji the perfect instrument

you might think I've not taken into aaccount your child. Find a place you are safe and in comfort. Listen to those youtube vids. Once youve done that google

Youtube panflute prince of Equador. Relaxxxx

Tony WK

[Smudget]

Thanks for taking the time to reply and share your story. I appreciate it.

Your spot on about objectivity when it comes to our own situations, I actually feel more isolated because of my job.

Thanks for the other useful info as well.

[Smudget]

Thanks Fairywings, what an amazing person and mummy you are too.

Weve never had any issues getting work but I agree, things are very different ATM.

Thank you for the warm welcome, it's definitely made me feel more comfortable.

[Smudget]

Hi white night, thanks for the response. You're spot on about needing to spend time in the rest zone. I've just found out that an old friend is running free yoga classes in a park that I can take my 2 year old along to and I have been looking at camping... Had a trial run with our toddler in the back yard but the daylight savings had him confused. Might be different if he can't see his house 😉

i will have a look now at your google suggestions. Thank you