Continuing from the last post. As someone who has suffered depression myself, I understand that wanting to pull yourself out from such a state takes great strength and will. More importantly, it is a sign that you know you deserve better and want to create a better future for yourself through healing past traumas and current mental health issues.
Your current question or issue seems to stem from feelings of being unsafe and feeling not secure in your environment, as you have stated this is attributed to your childhood trauma. I think bulling is a form of abuse that can often tarnish our self-confidence and identity. I want to ensure you address those past issues as perhaps the situations that have manifested thus far can be representative of your past childhood traumas.
Secondly, after identifying the root cause of your underlying emotion of feeling unsafe. I think it is important to ask yourself what makes me safe? And what doesn't make me feel comfortable or safe? If you can, try eliminating objects or things that you do not identify as improving your state of being such as old clothes and things that no longer serve you. Then perhaps this can make more room for you to keep the things you do cherish and that do make you feel safe and better.
After deciding what objects or possessions bring you great joy or what doesn't, I think the organisation of those objects is important. Maintaining some sort of order or structure to the organisation of your room or environment can often help with anxiety that is often associated with clutter or not knowing where your belongings are. This does not necessarily mean you have to be strictly ordered and clean, but it means having some form of structure can be beneficial in feeling less anxious and more safe!
Hope this helps Lola, all the best.
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