Life just getting worse, No one seems the same?

[missyjane86]

Putting it short,

I'm a Mum of 4, I have a little boy in my care all the time and 3 girls that are with there dad, Most people would read that and think why hasn't the mum got her girls, Well ive been in battle with my ex for 6 years, it has gone back to court again, I gave up as he is a liar and controls everything.

 Every single day I wake up and my chest achs, I need someone to talk to but everyone seems to busy or simply don't understand, Ive tried to salvage what is left with my sons dad but he just can't understand why I'm like this, why am I so upset, we don't have a friendship and we don't get along, I feel like every day all I see is the negatives, growing up has not been easy, and it seems like its not getting any better. Ive come here in hope to meet people I can talk too or vent with, I have major depression and it is the one thing I would change if I could. I want life to be happy, and enjoy my days, instead I seem caught up in the dark circle with no one to share my thoughts with without being told I'm just a negative person, and never happy.

 😞 life's not meant to be this hard, I'm sure of it.

[gettingthroughGAD]

Hi missyjane86,

 I can understand how you are feeling. It's so hard to be happy sometimes. As a person with a mental illness you end up having such a hard time determining between valid negative thoughts and the ones that live in our heads. Sometimes the pressure to be 'OK' and not take everything personally is way to intense. I think it's OK to have bad days and you've done a good thing by joining up here. This place will help you particularly as you are looking for people to talk to. I hope your feelings become more manageable, and life feels easier and happier in the future. 

I don't have any advice for you. I just wanted you to know that I've heard you.   

[missyjane86]

hey there, thanku for writing to me,

 And just knowing someone has read how I feel makes me feel I haven't waisted my time,

Juggling a broken family depression and anxiety is the biggest battle of my life, I feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel, I want a career And a good future, ive watched others in my life do this, gotten married, had kids, everything is settled, I can't seem to find that, I have such a back ground of pain and hurt fullness I don't know what to do with it. My days consist of wondering how I can make the pain go away, or how can I change my life without being worse off than I am. 

I just wish it would all go away.....

thanku so much for chatting with me, its nice to know there's other people battling all this pain