Lack of energy

[Rita10]

Hi everyone

I'm new here. I've being dealing with my anxiety and depression for the past few months. Addressing it for the first time. In retrospect I've struggled with this my whole life. It's hard to accept as I'm social and make people laugh a lot and always have felt pretty happy? And yet there is this thing underneath it all. I have always had anxiety attacks and low times here and there.

For the first time however it's been really hard to pick myself up. I'm so tired. I physically feel like even sitting is hard. I can't stand it. I saw a doctor and am on a low dose anti depressant . I've being on 20mg for six years and now I'm up to 30mg. I was fine on 20mg but now it is upped I don't feel better. Actually I feel worse. I'm trying to exercise. I'm trying to study. I'm trying to meditate and think positive thoughts. I'm a practicing artist and I can't create much work. Everything feels hard and nothing interests me. I don't want to burden my husband as we lost his dad to cancer 8 months ago and he hasn't being the best himself. He knows I'm sad and is supportive. I feel like I can't take care of him. It's an effort to do the laundry and clean the house. I'm about to do a prac with university and am so scared I will have no energy.

Any advice? I feel so useless.

[Fairywings]

Hi sweety thanks for joining us xx uping ur meds can def have the adverse effects. I would go back to ur doctor and go back to the 20mg explain to him you are finding it diff to function everyday sometimes upping meds isn't the answer. they just make you feel numb and empty all u want to do is sleep. I was once there too its not pretty feeling that way you feel like you can't get anything done xx I'm sorry to hear about your father in law cancer is such a terrible monster. ur not useless i would def look back at going on the 20mg as soon as you can take care please feel free to chat on here as much as you need too we r all here for you xx Venessa

[Sharny]

Hi Rita10,

Welcome to the forum. I would like to say that sharing can hopefully help to just off load some of your feelings and connect with others in similar situations. I noticed you mention that you don't wan't to burden your husband and I would like to say how wonderful it is though that your husband is supportive of you. Even with the challenges you've both got at the moment, togetherness can play a huge part moving through this. Your husband knows you are dealing with illness so try to remember that if you feel like things are not moving forward at the pace you would like.

Please share again if you feel like it. Kind thoughts.

Sharny

[Rita10]

Thankyou,

That's good to hear - it's true. I just feel like because his supporting me whilst I study and dealing with a loss I should go easy . but you're right. I'll chat to him tonight. Thanks for the words x

[Rita10]

yes I really noticed a change in my personality when I went up to 30mg. I don't like it. Booked in to see doctor on Monday 🙂

Thanks you guys xx

[Fairywings]

So happy to hear that's great keep in touch as often as you need 2 xx Venessa